Tidal Waves- Brallon

10. b a n g t h e d o l d r u m s

Dallon

I guess Patrick was right-ish.

He said, "Pete, it's been three days. Stop trying to be poetic." At the party.

And so I guess when something bad happens to you, you become 'poetic'.

Exactly what's happening to me.

Oh, what happened to me? Brendon lied to me.

He told me that everything that happened this summer was a lie. Just for fun.

The only thing that wasn't a lie and still remains a coincidence is the fact that he also went to California the same time and place I did. Still kind of iffy on that one.

But yeah, this whole time it's all been a big huge lie. Like the flowers he gave me with the little speech (which are still placed on my dresser next to the pack of cigarettes with only one missing).

Turns out that during the party he was gone because he'd been making out with this girl Sarah, last name is hard to pronounce let alone spell. She's smart and beautiful and no good for me.

Everyone is better than me.

"Maybe in another life, we could have worked out." He said.

He also spoke these words. Horrible. "I didn't actually like you."

Harsh.

"I was just bored during the summer. I knew nobody but you."

Even harsher.

Though, he had the guts to say this to my face. I'll give him that.

He asked if I was okay. "I'll be fine, really." I lied easily.

This all just sucks. I'm insane and idiotic for thinking he actually liked me. Someone I thought who was straight liked me.

But who could love me, I'm out of my mind?

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So if you've read my one shots, there's one that's titled "I Hate Pete Wentz" and it's basically an experience I have with my best friend and today he kinda just looked me in the eye and asked if I wanted to make out???!?? I know it's a joke but like?!,,!,!!,;' I wanted to???

Also sorry for the late update