The Disappearing Fields

chapter 15

+Kazimeiras+

"I've told you, you have to become in tuned with your abilities, your light, and wind. If you were, you wouldn't end up in this situation." I all but glare at a bedridden Haven. On the way home she had fallen asleep as she used up too much of her power. "I told you that you should never be too preoccupied to notice what your body is saying."

She pulled the covers up to her eyes. "I was listening. For once it was all on the same page. Buying you time and protecting Niko."

"Nikholas isn't your problem. You should have dropped the barrier around me when your ankle broke. But instead you forced yourself to keep fighting." I continue on with this lecture while asking to myself when did I become this person? The type to nickpick when I should be congratulating.

If this was any other person I would have been celebrating how well it went. So what, they used all their essence and broke an ankle it will teach them to be more cautious in the future. The fact is, they survived on their own for a set amount of time. Everyone starts at the beginning once upon a time.

Yet, since it's Haven, all I can focus on is when she should have called it quits or all the things she did wrong. All the ways I could have lost her. All the anxiety and nervousness from the battle was getting to me.

Again, when did I become this person? I was never an anxious person. Not too long ago, Haven called me a worry wart, I was never that. I always had an answer for everything, always had a way to solve any situation. But now, with Haven involved everything's become muddled. Grey. The things I'd never do have become what I do on a regular basis.

Getting up early to make breakfast, worrying about others Essence usage, fearing for someones safety, it use to be that if it didn't effect me or Nikholas I wouldn't have bothered. Thousands of times have I watch my trainees make the same mistakes with essence overuse that Haven has, I didn't badger them about it.

Somehow, it's different when it comes to Haven. She's changed me. So much in such little time. And even though I know it, I can't stop it. I'm at her mercy.

"Kaz stop being a worry wart. I'm fine, your fine, Niko's, fine. It all worked out." She sighed before continuing on, the cover covering most of her face. Something was bothering her, her normally amber eyes were sullen."I know I wasn't great but I'll get better you'll see. So you can get that nasty frown of disappoint off your face."

"Haven, I wasn't disappointed at all. In fact I was thoroughly impressed. Your abilities continue to surprise me."

There was a look on her face that said she didn't believe what I said but didn't voice her opinion. She nodded and yawned. "Alright. I'm getting sleepy."

"Are you dismissing me?" To think this girl has the nerve.

She moved the covers and smiled lazily. " no but I'm falling asleep and would rather you leave so I can rest peacefully."

"So you are dismissing me."

"Call it whatever you want. "

Shaking my head, I stand up and make for the door. But when my fingers make contact with the door knob, I remember what else I need to say. "Thanks for taking care of us, Haven."

She looked surprised before shrugging it off with a smile. "I can't just not try and save you guys. We're a team. Right?"

I turned back to the door to hide the smile on my face. "You bet. Sleep tight."

sorry for the short chapter. I'm kinda having writers block and this was all I could come up with -_-///