*A Nobody* *n.h.* -Finished-

Sorry's

-Niall

I walked inside the house and was stopped by Louis yelling upstairs. Immediately I ran up the stairs towards the screams, Louis voice getting Louder and clearer as I got closer.  When I saw Liam pulling Louis out of the room that Natalie was in I tensed up.

As he passed me Louis’ eyes were glassy and red but his face had changed. There wasn’t anger showing at all instead it changed to show that he was sad and guilty for acting the way he did and by what he yelled.

When I walked into the room Zayn was comforting Natalie as she cried into his chest. My stomach dropped as I saw her crying. Zayn’s eyes met mine as I came and sat next to them.

I told him that I would take her and he passed her over to me, like a small child. Zayn stood up and left, giving me a small smile that encouraged me.

Once Natalie came into my arms she started to calm down, her crying turning into silent tears. I took the opportunity to ask her if she was okay. Obviously I knew she wasn’t if she was crying but I just asked the first thing that came into my mind.

“I’m sorry.” She whispered in a voice full of emotion. I rocked her as I listened to see if she would continue.

“I’m sorry about what I said. I shouldn’t have said it because you guys honestly have saved me from myself.  Without you guys I probably would be dead right now. These past few weeks have been amazing, even if I fell off the track a little, I wouldn’t trade them for the world and I have you and the other boys to thank.”  I looked her in the eyes. It made my heart warm as she said it.

“Natalie, there was one reason why I didn’t want you to be a part of this and that was because of the fans hate. It’s cruel and sometimes inhumane what they say but you can’t believe them. This is exactly what they want is for you to leave so you’re not around us but that’s not what I want. I want you beside me every second of the day, laughing and smiling. I haven’t seen that side of you in a while and I miss it.”  I whispered to her, afraid that someone would interrupt our moment or overhear us.

She smiled softly but it dropped quickly making my heat miss a beat. What? Was it something I said?

“Niall I have something to show you and I know you are not going to like it.” She took a breath before she pulled her sleeve up exposing her arms. My eyes wandered downwards and I had to fight the gasp that wanted to escape my lips.

Newly fresh cuts marred her skin. It wasn’t that I was mad, disappointed maybe, but I couldn’t show it. This is the time she needs someone there to be able to pick her up when she’s given up and say that there’s so much more to life and you need to be here to live it.

And I was going to be that someone.

Instead of yelling or telling her something stupid, I pulled her in for a hug.  She seemed stunned by my actions. “Why aren’t you yelling at me?” She asked quietly. I pulled away, looking at her incredulously.

Her eyes were squeezed shut and her arms were wrapped around her stomach.

“Nat.” I whispered quietly as I tucked a strand of hair that had fallen out of her bun, behind her ear.

“I’ve disappointed you, I can’t help it. At the time my only way out was through cutting. It helped me relieve the pain that I felt from hearing their words. I wanted that escape and it was the easiest way out. I wanted to actually feel something for myself and that was the one way I did. I couldn’t talk to any of you all about it because you all said it makes you upset when your fans do that. I didn’t want you being upset with them so I kept it in and then when I was alone I would take it out on myself.” Her voice wavered as her tears spilled out of her eyes.

When she opened her eyes and looked at me her eyes turned a kind of sea blue, while the whiteness was a red now.

“You can always come to one of us. Just because it upsets us doesn’t mean we want you to hide what they say to you. We are here to help you through this time and by you hiding what they say from us it doesn’t make it better for you. You are my priority, keeping you happy and making sure you have the time of your life while you forget about what the people did to you growing up. That’s my priority not being upset at fans or having them upset with me.”

A small smile appeared on her face. “Thank you.” She said softly.  I looked at her and smiled.

“Anytime babe.” I ran my thumb across her cheeks to remove her tears. My eyes found hers and it seemed like everything slowed down.

I could feel myself leaning in and getting closer; and I am almost positive I felt her leaning in too. At that moment the only thing that I wanted was to feel her lips pressed against mine. It probably wasn’t a good time to be doing this since she was so vulnerable with what hate she was getting, but I couldn’t help myself. The temptation was almost too much.

Almost being a knock at the door. It was soft but to us it sounded like a stereo on full blast, making us jump apart. I saw that her face was red from embarrassment.

“Yeah?” She tried to yell out but it sounded very soft.

My eyes went to the door as it opened to reveal Louis.

His face was towards the ground as he took a small step into the room.

“Can we talk?” He whispered but it was just loud enough for us to hear.

Natalie nodded her head; unsure. “Yeah.” Her eyes went from me to Louis then back. She looked somewhat scared.

I truthfully didn’t want to leave her but I knew that this conversation wasn’t going to turn bad. I gave her hand a soft squeeze before standing up off of her bed and walking towards the door. Before I was completely out the door I awkwardly patted Louis back.

He didn’t crack a smile or anything, making me know just how guilty he actually felt. 

So I Honestly Don't Know How Many People Still Read This Since It's Been About Seven Weeks Since The Last Time I Updated. I Promise That Once I Get Fire Starter Finished This Will Be My Top Priority. I Don't Really Know How I Want This To Go But It'll Get There In Time. So How Did You All Like The Almost Kiss? ;) I'll Be Adding Some More Nialie Action As We Go On. (: 

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