“I thought you quit.” He stammered, his voice sounded as though he was speaking over a lump in his throat. I looked away as his blue eyes turned to look into mine. I couldn’t look at him, I feel disgusted with myself. When I didn’t answer he sighed and ran a hand over his eyes. I knew he was disappointed in me but what else could I do? He’s the popular twin that everyone likes and then there’s me, the fat, older one who is a freak that no one likes.
“Why?” He spoke after a long silence. I looked down at my hands not know what to tell him. Can I tell him the truth or will he just be like everyone else. I gave up and just told him everything.
“You want to know why Jake, because I’m a fat ass freak. Everyone hates me. Our own parents do. I’m bullied every day for being overweight. I have Depression that has a tendency to show up when they start with the names. I feel truly disgusted with myself, no one around me seems to think that all of this has to come crashing down on me at one point. I have lived with the bullying since 6th grade. Those names they have stuck with me since, every time I look at myself I want to literally just cut. That place that I was when I fell into the river is the same place I thought about ending everything, taking my life so I didn’t have to deal with the hurt. My life Jake is not easy like yours. Everyone likes you, you’re the better twin. Never has anything bad been said to you. Everyone wants to be your friend; mom and dad actually want to be seen with you. So Jake did you really want to know all of that?” My voice grew higher and before I knew it I was screaming at him but it felt almost as good as cutting just to get everything out.
His face looked shocked, I’ve never told anyone half the things I just shouted and now probably everyone on this floor knows what hell my life really has been.
“Natalie….” His voice trailed off as he tried to find the right words. I didn’t blame him for being speechless; his sister just told him what’s wrong with her life while he lives a life of ease.
“I don’t want sympathy; please just act like you did before. Don’t think that just because I told you everything about why I cut will change how you live your o so perfect life.” I don’t really know why but I grew angry. Angry at the thought that he did have a perfect life.
Jake didn’t say anything, his face unreadable as he stood up and walked to the door. He opened it and took a step before turning around and facing me.
“I’ll figure this out; your life shouldn’t be like that.” And with that he walked out.
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*A Nobody* *n.h.* -Finished-
FanficI'm a nobody. I have nobody and nobody wants me. I have issue's they make up why I am like the way I am. I try not to give up but sometimes it's my only choice. Natalie's life isn't perfect and never has been. Between her parents liking her twin bro...
