*A Nobody* *n.h.* -Finished-

New Start.

-Normal

“What the hell?” I mumbled as I looked around. Six boys stood around my bed but that’s not what I was concerned about why I was drench in water. That left my mind too as I looked around my room; or should I say used to be room

“Now you’re awake, we’ve been standing here trying to wake you up for the last half hour.” I don’t even know which one answered. My eyes just traveled all around the bare walls. All of my lights were gone, and the very little posters I did have. The only thing that was left was the dresser, my bed, and the little saying on the wall.

By now all the boys were watching me, their curious gaze stayed locked on me; trying to figure out how I would react and to be quiet honest I honestly don’t know what to think.

“Where’s all my stuff?” I found my brother standing in between Niall and Louis. He sighed a little, almost as if he was expecting me to blow up or something.

“Nat, you know I always want the best for you right?” I gave him an unsure nod. He does look out for me but sometimes he’s just as bad as the others.

“Well I think that for your well-being it would be best if you went away for some time.”

There was something about the way he said it, his voice faltered like he really didn’t want to tell me that I was leaving.

“Okay, where will I be going?” My voice was hoarse; I’m not sure why maybe I was coming down with a cold?

“You’ll be going with us. We are touring the United States for another month then we fly back to London around August.”

I wasn’t sure what to feel. Should I be mad that Jake wants me to leave; but he didn’t sound like he wanted you to leave, my inner thoughts threw back at me? Well then I should be happy that I’m getting out of this hell whole.

“And I’ll be living with you all in London?” I wondered aloud. All of them gave me nods. Well I guess I think that leaving her will be good. I mean yeah there’s leaving the few friends I have and Jake but I can always call them.

“Well when do I leave then?” This made them all look between each other. Maybe they hadn’t planned on me agreeing so quickly? Liam gave me the answer.

“Actually we were supposed to of left about two hours ago, that’s why your stuff was all packed. We had your clothes sent to our bus and Paul was shipping you other things to Niall house over in London.”

Okay so maybe they had planned I would go along with this. I didn’t give them another word, the only I did was go and see if I at least had some clothes in the dryer. There was a pair of undergarments, jeans, and a shirt. I grabbed them and went to get a warm shower. I walked back into my room, went into the bathroom, and started the shower.

I slipped my clothes off and stepped into the shower. It was warm, mostly because I just needed to wash away all my horrible things. I washed my hair and body before I took a long look at the scares on my arms. Some were starting to fade into a white line but others were still pink and healing. There was one thing though, for each of them I felt like I deserved them.

I deserved every single one of the lines that are on my arms. There may not be a lot but each one was for a different reason. I was always the other child; the one who wasn’t good enough for my parents, who will never be loved by anyone.  I shook my head; I shouldn’t be thinking like that it will only lead to one thing.

Before I could do anything that would disappoint some people I got out of the shower and wrapped my body and hair in a towel. I dried myself off and then put my clothes on. My hair was easy to brush out, which I loved, and since the boys had to leave soon I just left it natural.

“You ready?” I was asked once I stepped into the living area. I gave them a small nod and watched as they all stood up. 

“Okay well Paul is outside waiting on the bus. We’ll give you some time to say goodbye.” Liam said. Before they walked out the door they gave Jake a hug and from what I could understand they told him to call and text them now. He agreed and told them he would now since they had his sister. Once they walked out the door Jake turned to me. Now comes the hard part.

“Come here.” I said. He fell into my open arms. I almost laughed as I thought of how this must look. I was the one leaving shouldn’t I be all sad and everything; actually I don’t really feel anything at the moment.

“Mom and Dad know that you’re leaving but I didn’t tell them where and with whom. I figured that if you leave then that can be your fresh start. Natalie you need to get out of here and I think that Niall and the other boys can bring the old you back. I’m not sending you away because I don’t love you, I’m doing this because it’ll help you out in the long run.”

“It’s okay Jake, I don’t need this place. The only people that I care about are you; my so called friends haven’t even called or anything so I guess that Clara was right. They did only feel bad, that’s why they were my friends.”  I could tell he wanted to object to it but it was the truth. They’ve not called or texted me since the graduation lock in.

“I love you, please know that and that you can always call me whenever you need me.” I gave him a genuine smile.

“I love you too and I will.”  I gave him a kiss on the cheek and a goodbye before I gathered up the little amount of stuff the boys didn’t grab. I walked out the door and saw the black bus that would be my new home for a while.

A new home, new life, and a new start; exactly what I’ve been in need of.