It's The Mafia Princess

5- Past

(This chapter is all about Sheron and Red. Para hindi kayo maguluhan char. HAHAHA GO FOR 100 READS!)

2 years ago.....

"I like you, Sheron." He said.

"What do you mean Red?" I can't believe this. Si Red may gusto sa isang katulad ko? He knows what I've been through. He knows what I'm capable of doing. But still he choose me? 

"I don't know Sherry, all I know that I like you. No, not just Like, I think I love you." I want to run, gusto ko siya sampalin. Wala akong feelings sakanya, I can even kill him right now. After John died, marami nangligaw sakin, but ni isa sakanila wala akong sinagot. Sa takot ko na rin baka maulit yung nangyari. And I don't want to kill anyone, anymore.

"Red, you knew it right?"
"I know. Pero Sherry, that was 4 years ago. 4 fucking years, nagdusa ka. Umiiyak ka sa lalaking yun, you knew hindi mo kagagawan yun bakit siya namatay. Sherry, nadala ka lang ng galit mo kaya napatay mo siya. Pero dapat lang sakanya yun kasi traydor siya!"
"STOP IT! I don't want to hear those hurtful words coming from you. Especially, you're talking to the man I loved." How could him? I know he's there when I need him the most, but saying those words, it hurts me and my past is hunting me. He's hunting me.

"Kaya kitang protektahan Sherry. Hindi ko kayang makita kang nasasaktan, hindi kita hahayaang mag isa, just let me Sherry. Let me be the guy for you Sheron. Please I beg you."

Luluhod na sana siya nang pigilan ko siya, I grab his hand and I can feel his sincere. Pero hindi ko kayang pumasok sa isang relasyon na hindi ko naman kayang mahalin ang isang tao, at ayoko rin saktan ka Red.

"Red, you see, it's not you. I appreciate the confession. But Red, you know my situation. Hindi ko kayang mag let go ng ganun lang, I'm sorry but I can't." I put a sincere smile, I can't hurt Red. Masasaktan at masasaktan ko lang din siya sa huli. So i'll end this.

"Sheron please. Am I not enough for you? Gagawin ko lahat Sherry, mapasaya ka lang. Just give me a chance Sherry please." Naawa na ako saknya, ayokong makita siyang ganito. This is not Red, the Red I know. 

"Red please, you know I can't."
"Please Sherry. Just give me a chance please." What I'm going to do? I don't know what to say anymore.

I saw him crying, sobbing. He's hurting. I've hurt him. 

"Sherry, just one chance. Just one, mapatunayan ko lang sayo na kaya kitang iligtas. And I'll make it sure, I'll be the best guy you'll ever have. Just please give me a chance." I don't know if this is the right thing to do. Bahala na, I don't want to see him suffer. Not to anyone.

"All right. I'll give you a chance. But please Red, don't expect, I will love you soonest." What have I done? Is this the right thing to do? Atleast I can make him happy right?
"Thank you! Thank you Sherry! You'll never regret this!" 
He hugged me tightly. I knew from this very moment, he's very happy.

Days had passed, hindi nga siya nagkulang. Kahit hindi ko kailangan ang presensya niya, pumupunta siya sa bahay at kahit sa HQ, pag nag tra-training ako, nakikita ko siya sa isa sa mga bench umuupo at may dala dalang pagkain. He's a boyfriend material indeed. Lahat ng gusto ng babae nasa kanya na, looks, money, fame. All you can see it. Pero ba't ganun, kahit anong gawin niya hindi ko parin maramdaman na mahal ko siya? 
Is it because I'm still in love with John? Maybe.

"Hon, ito oh. Kumain ka pa ng gulay. Diba nag tratraining kapa? Para may lakas ka pa." He's very caring when it comes to me. He makes me his first priority. Pero alam niya hindi ko kayang mag mahal ulit, he's trying too hard. But at least I can make him happy, even though it's one sided love.

"Red, why are you trying?"
"Trying of what hon?" I need to settle this, once and for all. Even though I can see he's happy, but I know he's hurting inside.
"Stop this Red. I think it's better that we," Tumayo ako, at nagulat ako sa sinabi niya.
"I know." Wait, is he expecting what I'm going to say to him? 
Tumayo din siya, at tinignan ako ng deretcho.

"Sherry, we should. I know hindi ka pa nakaka move on sakanya, and I'm making myself a fool, na ginagawa ko lahat, pero hindi mo parin ako matutong mahalin. Alam ko yun Sherry. Kasi siya parin diba?" Yumuko ako, dahil sa kahihiyan. I never knew he would be like this. Head over heels for me. Pero hindi ko siya masisi kasi nga mahal ko pa si John. And I don't think I can replace him in my heart.

"It's alright. I think I should end this. Pero please remember, na mamahalin parin kita kahit may mahal kang iba. Mag hihintay ako Sherry, as long I'm living." And for the last time, he kissed me. Passionately pero hindi ako tumugon. Hinayaan ko na lang siya. At umalis na siya. Nalaman ko na lang na pumunta siya ng London at sumama sa mga magulang niya. I think it's better this way.

Present Time

I can't believe what I'm seeing right now. Red, in front of me. He looks mature, but he still have those eyes. He's still Red. Is he?
"Red,"

"Sherry,"

Naglakad siya papunta sakin, at biglang nakatayo na siya sa harapan ko, he's very tall. He's a fine young man. Wala na yung Red nakilala ko, is he still the same? Or not.

"Nagkita tayo ulit Sherry." He kissed my cheeks that makes me shiver.

"Nice seeing you too, Red."
"You know, old times."
"Yes." Yes the old times, the old us. But I know I've hurt him. Pero ginawa ko lang yun dahil hindi ko pa kayang magmahal ulit, at kahit ngayon hindi ko pa kaya.
"Let's be a good team Sherry." 
"Of course, Mr. Borgh." 

"It's a pleasure, Ms. Dublin."

And we shake hands.

I think this would start a new beginning for the two of us. 

Sorry po sa late UD. Don't worry next chapter is John and Sheron moment na po tayo. naks. HAHAHAHA. Love lots. ♥