Turn Away | c.h

Chapter 30 - Drain You

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I watched the rain fall against the glass, leaving streaks of water along the outside. I followed a raindrop running down the window before it disappeared along the sill. I had been doing this all morning.

Nothing could get me out of bed, nothing could motivate me to move today and I truly had no idea way. I felt as if my happiness had just been ripped from my gut, and I was left to mourn without it. Most days, before meeting Calum, used to be like this. I had an absence of light in my life once again. That light used to be my mother, and now, it's Calum.

I wasn't like this everyday. Only most, since I had nothing good to look forward to. I'd spend my days in bed, laying in complete silence. That's when dad began to give up on me, after mum left. I'd refuse to talk to him- I knew this only made him feel guilty, as if it was his fault she left, but in reality, I hid myself from him because I believed it was my fault.

I never once told him that, though.

I rolled over onto my side, checking the time; 10:28. I didn't bother with school today, and I knew I'd get told off about it when I got back. But I wanted to spend the day in my bed, where I felt that nothing could hurt me. I didn't want to see the world today, I just wanted to watch the rain falling down the window, over and over until I could no longer keep my eyes open. I wanted to sleep, but I didn't want to go trough another night terror. I could do nothing that would make me feel better except for lay in bed, trying to switch my mind off.

I ran my fingers up and down my arm, my own cold touch sending goosebumps across my skin. It was freezing in this room but I couldn't be bothered to do anything about it. I liked feeling something.

Suddenly, my phone began buzzing from my bedside table. I slowly rolled over, glancing at my phone as it buzzed. I sat up, reaching over and grabbing it. It was coming from an unknown number. I answered the call, pressing the phone to my ear.

"Hello?" I quietly said, hearing my voice for the first time today- it sounded rusty, I felt bad for the person on the receiving end.

"Stel?"

I instantly sat up as I heard his voice, my body suddenly in a frenzy of mixed emotions.

"Cal?"

"Yeah- baby, it's me, are you okay?" He asked, as relief flooded through me. It was so good to hear his voice.

"I'm good, are you? Is everything okay? Where are you?"

He softly chuckled as I frantically asked the questions, my mind racing at this situation.

"Everything will be fine, I'm in town."

"Wait- what's wrong? Did something happen?" I asked.

"Yeah, but I'm sorting it out." He lowly said. I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Calum, what happened."

There was a brief silence between us as I heard shuffling over the line. I anxiously waited for his response, my fingers nervously scratching at my forearm.

"Someone's after me," he finally spoke. "They're trying to kill me."

"W-What?" I said, my voice leaking desperation. I wanted him home this very second.

"I mean-obviously they can't kill me because I'm currently unkillable."

"Calum- how do you know someone's after you?" I asked, disregarding his thoughts out loud.

"I just know... Somethings not right. Yesterday, after I- found someone, there was a black figure just kind of standing in the distance and it didn't move or anything, it just stayed. It's been following me around after that." He quietly explained, as I clutched the phone in my hand. I leant forward.

"Can't you come home..? It wouldn't follow you home, would it? We could stay inside for a few days until it's gone."

"I don't know what it's after, Stel. I don't want to put you in danger." He softly spoke.

"But you'd be safer here." I pleaded.

"But you wouldn't."

I softly breathed out, running a hand through my hair as I looked back towards the window. The rain streaked down it, still, leaving lines of water.

"I just want you home."

"I know, I want to be home too. But I can't come back until this thing leaves... You understand, right?" He quietly said, his soothing voice somewhat calming me down. I nodded, looking down.

"I understand."

"Good... I miss you, St-"

And suddenly, the line cut off. I furrowed my eyebrows, sitting up slightly.

"Calum?" I quietly asked, feeling my heart drop as I received no answer. He was gone from the phonecall. I hung up the call, locking my phone and throwing it back down as I curled up into a ball on my bed.

My eyes fell shut as I laid in silence again. I wanted to hear his voice already- that's when I realised how unhealthy this relationship truly was. I was broken every passing second I was a apart from Calum, I wanted him near. He had the strongest hold on me, and I knew that he had no intentions of releasing me... And honestly, I didn't want him to.

I had been fighting it off- but I knew there was no use. I had finally felt the love I hadn't received in years, and here Calum was, giving me his attention and his warmth and I just couldn't help myself- I had fallen I love with him. Even after I convinced myself I never would. I detested the thought of love or anything like it, I spent years hiding from it and suddenly Calum just appeared out of no where, and I could no longer hide. Love at first sight did exist, Calum and I were living proof.

It frightened me to my core, loving Calum. God knows what could happen to him at any given second. I could fall asleep with him next to me and wake up alone, without a clue of where he went. It wasn't healthy. But perhaps healthy wasn't what I wanted... I was addicted to the crazy, the raw, beautiful side of our relationship. I was addicted to him and that wasn't healthy, but that didn't make it bad.

Love is a messy concept, one you'll only truly understand when it's ripped from you, then given back by the most graceful touch you'll ever feel. I was in love with Calum. And I didn't -I couldn't- change anything about it.