Fate

Chapter 33: Trust crumbled

"You get to know them. You become best friends. You start seeing their flaws. You start seeing past their flaws. You try your best to ignore it, once, twice. Until you can't. And you fight. And fight, until there's no energy left.

Until you lose them."

If anyone ever told you about hungovers, they'd say it's awful. But let me tell you, it's pretty fucking goddamn awful. My head is pounding like someone's drumming a sledgehammer on my head, and unlike yesterday, my head feels so heavy. I checked what time is it on my phone-5:00am, it reads.

I lazily stood away from the bed, the sheets were clean, and I noticed a huge bandage on my wrist. Whoever cleaned me up, they did it pretty well.

I ignored the heavy feeling in my head and went to take a shower. If my head felt heavy, then my heart felt fucking heavy. I tried to forget memories from yesterday but they all kept replaying itself like a fucking broken record.

I'm your sister.

Is that even possible? Is that the first piece of puzzle to be put on?

I tried, I tried so hard.

But how? I was there all the time, for 9 years. I even lived alone for a year. How was it hard to contact me?

And the letter, that letter that I should've opened. I should've opened 9 years ago. It's too late now.

I forced my eyes close, not wanting to cry anymore. But as soon as images of "My sister." Snapped in my head, I burst out, crying.

I couldn't hold those tears anymore, it's hard to. Why couldn't I just have a fucking normal life?

I turned off the water and got out of the shower. I wore a black hoodie and a blue cigarette boyfriend jeans, matching the outfit with a black converse. I pulled my hair in a high ponytail (Which was pretty hard) physically I was not okay and mentally I was destroyed.

When I was sure I'm ready to leave the dorm, I went to th cafeteria finally. Sebastian wasn't there. In fact, the cafeteria was almost empty. Only filled at the corners from the college geeks.

"That's weird." I mumbled under my breath.

I went on the side of campus that I've never been to before.

I stopped in track when I saw a pile of people circled around something, I couldn't make out what they're looking at yet, but I could see that some were taking pictures.

"Is there a fight?" Someone asked,

"No idea." Was my answer.

We walked closer and I could make out what they're staring at, crystal...clear.

On a hardboard was hanged a white sheet, with a blood stain on it. I arched my eyebrows at the sight, but not before seeing my picture next to it and some words written in a very bold font above it. My heart was beating out of my chest.
I was very concerned that they'll know about that I self harm, but that's not what I should care about anymore.

Was written on the hardboard, "SIERRA REMIREZ CHEATED WITH BOY NEXT DOOR."

I was having trouble breathing. I was hyperventilating. Tears were threatening to fall out of my eyes. This. Can't. Be. Happening. And then I saw Shady in the crowd. Looking at me intensely with wide eyes.