Cigarettes Are Bad For You
But The People Smoking Them Are Worse.
"Know who you fall in love with because you may just land the wrong way and break your heart."
C.S
[Interracial]
It was raining again and my head was hurting and I felt nothing but regret. I wish I would've kissed him faster and got the chance to feel his lips on mine for atleast 5 seconds. I wish I would've had him wrapped around my finger in his apartment but no, I didnt. Wait, maybe I was being selfish. He just got out of a breakup and although he wasn't hurt, I was only thinking of myself because he didn't want to kiss me and I was just taking advantage of his situation. Maybe I need to take a break from them or maybe I need a break from everyone. I can't handle another day with Cole and Dylan leaving me confused and hopless of where I stand. I wish things were back to the time before Dylan and Cole walked in the coffee shop and took my seat. I want to go back to when Cole would stand outside of the vinyl shop smoking three cigarettes and flicking his lighter paying no mind to anyone else including myself.
Today I needed a break from them and probably a conversation where I'm not worried about how to talk and act. When I got outside the rain had stopped so I was in blue jeans and a black jacket but since it was cold I bought it with me anyway.
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I haven't been doing anything with myself lately and just been letting my hair fall in any direction it chose, shows how much I cared about myself at the moment.
When I turned the corner I could see the twins sitting outside the coffee shop with Lily who just sat down in a cute orange dress. I took my phone from my pocket and made it seem like I was texting to avoid conversation or confrontation. When I got to the door I could see they were all looking up at me expectantly when I glanced in their direction. Cole exchanged looks with his brother but no one said a word. "Tay I ordered you a coffee." Cole said, I was hoping no one would talk to me but nope. I held onto the door then turned to talk without remembering yesterday. "No thank you." I smiled still going into the shop. I felt bad but like I said, I need a break. I got in line to order my green tea and blueberry muffin thinking about how odd it's going to be leaving. When I got my order I walked out the shop and passed the trio like I had no idea who they were. I'm sure I offended them but hopefully they'll understand. I turn the corner and got into the lobby of my apartment and bumping into Manerva. "Hi Gorgeous." Manerva greeted sweetly. Its been forever since I spoke to her and I was fine with that but at a time like this i needed a distraction. I did the unexpected. I sat down on the steps and had a conversation with her while I ate my breakfast. Although she's annoying she's also a bit funny and caring which was refreshing to be around.
Since I was so bored I turned music on from the 1950s while cleaning everything in my house. I was dancing to Elvis because I didn't know the words while sweeping around. I would've been done already if I wasn't treating the broom like a microphone and trying to do tricks like I was on stage. I'm sure my neighbors were wondering why I was listening to old music pretty loud but I wasn't gonna turn it down. Today was going great so far and I never knew I was capable of thinking of myself instead of someone else. I kept dancing all over so I almost wasn't going to answer the door but I did when a knock went through the air. I skipped over and pulled the door open and there she was. Manerva had brought her own broom over and was singing to the music I was listening to like she was here the entire time. I laughed and let her in so we could dance and enjoy eachothers company.
