The room 102 - z.m fics

Should I be worried ?

- on our future ?
- you may think I'm completely pathetic..
- tell me. You're not pathetic and you never will be!
- did you ever imagine our kids ?
  That question made me freeze. And it wasn't the fact it was a cold night.
The truth it's that since my teenager years I always had this fear, fear of relationships and responsibilities, this fear of belonging to somebody to the rest of our lives and build a life with them. I'm not saying I am anti humanity, not at all, I just like to be free and be the person I am without carrying responsibility. Since little I saw my parents complaining about being married. Maybe my dream of marrying somebody got destroyed in the moment when I was just 6, I listen them fighting over things that little kids never understand.
  But Zayn, Zayn was different. I knew it would be worthy marrying somebody like him. Love is something you should put above every fear, because love somebody is the biggest responsibility we can have..and loving Zayn was never a fear. Was a blessing.
- yes. - I replied smiling at him. - I imagine them. I can see them.
- so that means you want ?
- yeah.. - I took seconds to reply, I stayed looking at the sky for a while imagining everything - I want. Not now, we are young and I want to spend everyday looking at you but soon, I'd love to look at you with a messy house, toys everywhere, Bob sleeping in the kid's bed and you sleeping with our little baby in our arms. That..that would be amazing.
- I love you. I was afraid if you would say no to me, and say that you won't because I know how afraid you are..
- I'm not afraid of a life where you are in. - I interrupted - I'm afraid of highs but look, I'm here with you.
He came closer to me and hugged my body extremely tight, that kept me safe. The dishes with pizza ended up by falling in the floor and that made us laugh a little. We already had eaten the sandwiches, the chips, we didn't have pizza but we held each other. We had each other and that was special, that was what I needed, what he needed.
- we won't sleep here right ? - I asked him after a while we stayed looking at the moon
- what ? Do you want ?
- I prefer a bed in the floor, thank you.
  He laughed, that was contagious.
- nah babe, it's getting kinda cold and maybe Zi and my brother are coming so I think it's better to get inside.
- thank you for the best dinner of my life, mr Stars.
- the best dinner of your life is yet to come, mr Moon. - he said grabbing the empty bag and holding my hand.
- what do you mean ?
- don't even think that I'm gonna tell you, surprise..
  We repeated the same path and in less than 2 minutes, we were already in the kitchen cleaning the dishes, while Bob was sleeping in the sofa.
After some time Zi came home with Cameran in her arms.
- sorry guys, he fell asleep in the car. How was the dinner ? - she whispered
- oh it's alright! Really good, aunt..give me, I'm gonna put him in the bed.
Zayn grabbed Cameran while I stayed in the kitchen. Zi looked a bit worried to be honest, I could see that by the way she was looking. Her eyes looked empty.
- Zi..
- yes love ?
- are you alright ?
- not that good, love.
- you know you can talk to me right ?
- of course, let's go to the garden okay ?
  I put my arm on her shoulder trying to make her feel a bit better. Her arms were cold like snow.
- what is it about ? - I said sitting next to her in a little white table.
- I'm really worried with Zayn, Christine but I beg you to not tell him..
- of course, tell me.
- You met Tanya right ? His ex girlfriend ?
- yes, I met her.
- she is a woman who really doesn't know how to deal with the things. I don't know if you know the truth but I was the one who presented her to Zayn. I couldn't see him always sad and depressed so I thought she could make him feel better but I did a huge mistake.
- Zi..it's all good now, I am here. You don't have to worry..
- I still have to worry. She cheated on him many times with guys from a gang.
- wait, what ? I know she cheated but from a gang ?
- exactly, a gang. And as you can imagine, I am always reflecting about everything and what if she tells them ?
- I know what you are trying to say but no, no, no..no Zi, that won't happen okay ?
- oh! You're here! - zayn came to the garden with a cup of tea.
I swear I needed to know more about this situation, I was worried too but a gang ? Which gang is she talking about ?!