The room 102 - z.m fics

Explaining Love.

I didn't want him to be negative, I didn't want him to think about going there because I knew how everything would look like. Specially how it would end. That's not what I wanted and I knew more troubles would come if Zayn went there.
  We just needed to protect ourselves, maybe my holidays would be longer than I expected, I knew that I wouldn't work right thinking how Zayn and his family could be.

I didn't tell him in that moment about my thoughts or about my worries, I didn't want him to feel worse than he was and more worried. He needed positivity and that's what I gave him.
He kept hugging me until Cameran comes in the bathroom with smile asking why we weren't going to eat our breakfast. I ended up doing the food for Zayn while he stayed playing cards with Cameran, the cards had superheroes and they looked totally like kids, even though Zayn still seemed to be worried.

- thank you for the breakfast, babe ! - Zayn said after drinking the rest of orange juice.
- You don't have to thank me..how is that game now ? Who won ?
- The superhero! - Cameran replied excited
- Who's the superhero ? To me all the cards are about heroes..
- I'm talking about my brother, he won.
- You need to stop talking like that or you gonna see me flying one of those days.. - Zayn said giggling
- You don't need to fly, you are already one by yourself and I already told you that enough times..I thought you had understood.
- You know brother, sometimes people just don't believe on what you tell them no matter how many times you think you're right on saying that.
- But why people don't believe it ?
- He does. - I resolved to come in the conversation, it just felt right to talk - he does believe he is a superhero..but sometimes the superhero vibe isn't inside him so he doesn't believe on what he does.
- There's a superhero vibe ? - Cameran asked excited again - I never saw those in the movies!
- Of course! There's always something that the movies don't talk about, love..and that's one of those things. You just have to catch attention and see.
- So when does the vibe comes, Zayn ?
- Humm..some-
- It depends of the days! - I interrupted him giving him a look as "sorry, but let me finish this". Both of them kept looking at me like I was a teacher explaining something really unique. - It depends of the weather, time, clothes..on our feelings too.
- Does it come when he is angry or sad ?
- Not that everything that makes me sad or angry makes me feel the vibe, Cameran. - Zayn said - The vibe depends a lot on the people around you..how they act.
- Do I give you that vibe ?
- Of course you do! You are my partner, brother.
- And me ? - I asked smiling.
- Specially you, Chris..
- So the love makes you feel like a hero, right ? The love between you and her makes you feel this vibe!
- Love makes us feel certain feelings that we don't even know the names..it's something that you will learn about one day ok brother ? Now, let's watch some tv with Chris, alright ?
- One day I want to talk more about love with the two of you, ok ?
- Okay. - me and Zayn replied giggling to each other.
 
  How can a boy so young think about love like a serious theme, like its something that he deals with every single day ? It was crazy to think at that way about love in the age he was.
When I was 5/6 years old, all I thought about was painting books, play outside with other kids, do make up on myself after seeing models around me, play games with my dad..and the word "Love" never came to my mind like that. Of course I used to say lots of "I love you" to my family and friends but I never knew what that word meant..like Cameran wants to know. To be honest with you, I think that word it's something that only can be explained to the ones who already felt it in their souls. Explaining the word "Love" or any strong word with a strongly deep meaning it's something hard to do, no matter what's the age or person. Every single person has their own definition and Cameran needed to fall in love first, get his heart break, have his first relationship to truly understand that this word means more than loving our parents, our toys or pizza. There's people around the world who needs to be loved.

   Sounds weird but I fell asleep again in Zayn's lap at that magical sofa. When I woke up, the whole Zayn's family was there again: Zi was talking really low with Trisha, maybe to not wake me up, Yaser was holding a coup of coffee in the sofa watching the tv with Cameran laughing watching the cartoons. And Zayn ? Zayn was just caressing my hair with his sweet fingers.