Holding Back

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I finally reached lunch hour after what seemed like an eternity. I had three classes which were physical science, pre-algebra, and English. I've never done anything like that before. The teachers seemed nice enough except for my English teacher mr. Johnson. He was old and stuck up. But my math teacher mr. Demi and my science teacher Mrs. Roberts were alright.

I sit at a table with Katherine, Kadence, Vanessa (my friend from dance), and some other people I don't quite know yet. I had packed a peanut butter and honey sandwich that morning because I'm not allowed off campus to buy food and I didn't want mom to give me any lunch money. We were already in a tight spot and I didn't want to make it more difficult. "So how has your first day been so far?" Kat asks me while she eats her salad. Kat and Kade are vegetarian health nuts. I on the other hand have no problem eating a cheeseburger with fries. "It's been alright." I reply. "Still getting used to the whole experience." I say that with a smile. But inside I'm not smiling. I tend to hold back all my emotions because I feel like I'm being annoying or bothersome telling people about my problems. Inside I feel lonely, even though I have good friends and family. I feel like I'm always the annoyingly quiet one in the corner who knows nothing. Everyone else has been in public school their whole life. Im just now coming into it and I have no idea what I'm doing. I just have to hope and pray that I don't do anything to embarrassing while I'm here. But I know I will.
*Ring Ring* (lol that was lame)
"Well back to class. See you later." I wave at Vanessa and head off to computer with Kade. I say I silent prayer while we walk the halls that my life will get better, that today is just the first day and everything will be fine. I have a little trouble believing that it will though...
Hey! I updated this! Surprise!!! 😀🎉🎈🎂
I just love talking to my imaginary followers and readers. It makes my day. *she says sarcastically*
That's all for now. Peace out Girl Scout! ✌🏼️

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