"Yes."
No. No no no no NO!!! This can't be happening. My parents could never get a divorce. Maybe I'm dreaming this all up. I'm going to wake up soon and I'll still be in my bed and realize this was all just a dream. I pinch my arm to see if I'm right. All that happens is there is sting in my arm. I'm still awake. Rooted to my spot in the doorframe. Frozen.
A minute passes. Then an hour. Then days. Then years. My comprehension of time has gone. How long I've been standing here? I honestly have no idea.
I let out a breath I didn't know didn't holding. How long was I holding it?
I need to tell Nate. I need to tell someone. I need to cry. I need to scream. I need to punch something and I need to hug something. But mostly I just want to run. Run away from everything. Run from my problems, anxiety, school, THIS, run away from my whole life.
But I can't. I can't do that and I know it. And it frustrates me to pieces. Why is life so difficult?! Just when you're getting the hang of things life throws you a curve ball. Except the curve ball hits you right in the face and knocks you down.
I'm snapped out of my trance by the sound of footsteps heading up the stairs. I quickly but quietly shut my door, pull the blankets back, and jump onto my bed.
I hear my door creak open and I shut my eyes pretending to be asleep.
I feel a pressure on my bed and I can already tell it's my mom. She moves a strand of hair out of my face and sighs.
"Ellie."
She whispers so quietly I can barely hear her.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry."
I'm trying my hardest not to cry. She can't know that I heard her.
She softly kisses my forehead.
She pulls the blankets over me and then leaves the room.
Now I let my tears fall. I let them rush down my face. I cry until there are no tears left. I cry until my head aches and my throat is dry and sore.
How is this happening? That's just the problem. It can't be. Maybe she was just overreacting and they'll make up and everything will be ok in the morning. We'll go back to being a normal, loving family. Even as I think these thoughts I know they're lies. I shouldn't believe in false hope. But I hold onto the thought nonetheless. I know I shouldn't. I should accept the fact of what's going to happen. But I don't. I pretend that nothing will happen. Even if it's only for tonight. Tonight will be the night where everything's normal. My parents love each other, people love me, I have a beautiful, happy, loving, caring family. Those are the thoughts I try to fill in my mind.
After hours of trying to convince myself that everything will be fine, I finally fall into a restless sleep. Dreaming of only my parents and what is to come.
Hey my peeps!!! How's it goin?
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!
I love this holiday!! I mean who doesn't love a day where you get to dress up with no shame and get FREE candy?! Am I right???
This is kinda a short authors note. So I will conclude now.
PEACEOUT GIRLSCOUT!!! ✌🏼️
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Roman pour Adolescents-Discontinued- Ellie has been homeschooled all her life, but with the recent loss of her dads job she has to go to public school. But what happens when her parents start fighting more and more, when she sees her crush with another girl, will she be...
