It's Sunday. The day I've been dreading. My whole being wants to stay home from church just so I don't have to face Timothy, but I know I'll have to do it sooner or later so why not get it over with now. I step out of my moms black expedition and walk to the building. My dads not with us, he stayed home. Things are getting worse. Nate trails behind me. I try to keep a happy face on so he doesn't suspect any things up, but I know it won't be long before he realizes that somethings wrong with me. And of course he'll want to talk about it and help me. But right now I don't want to bring it up. I take a deep breath and push open the double glass doors that lead into the foyer. I look around, not seeing Timothy, only Randy the sound guy. I wave hello and walk out into the hall way. As I near the youth room door I mentally brace myself to look into his deep blue eyes and act as if nothing had happened, nothing was wrong. Even though everything was wrong. I open the wooden door that's covered in posters of skillet, family force five, Toby Mac, and many more and look to the seat where he always sits... It's empty. Maybe he isn't coming today? That would be strange considering his dad is the pastor. There are no tables, just chairs lined up along the wall. I take in the middle of Kadence and Katherine at our usual spot to the left of the door and Nate sits in front of us. CLASH is what we call ourselves. Christians Learning And Serving Him. Our church is pretty small so there's only about 15 of us in the youth group. So we all sit in the same seats every week. A few more people come in but still no Timothy. Finally our youth pastor Larry DeLaney starts our lesson. From what I remember he's teaching out of Matthew and about the last supper. But I have a difficult time paying attention. My mind keeps wondering to Timothy. Maybe he's with Monica. Would his parents even allow him to skip church to be with her? Maybe he knows I like him and just doesn't want to see me. How could he know though? Unless the unlikely chance that someone knows and told him, he couldn't know. I wonder I've even crossed his mind since school. All these thoughts and more cross through my mind until I'm jerked to attention by the door opening. Timothy walks through the door and I automatically follow him with my eyes as he sits down. "I'm sorry I'm late." Gosh I love his voice. "My alarm didn't go off and I woke up late." So he wasn't with Monica. That's a good thing right? I try to stop thinking about him but my eyes keep flickering over to him. Why do I do this? Why do I let his face consume my thoughts all day and then remember the still vivid memories of him and Monica? Why do I keep thinking of the impossible, a world where he loved me as more than a friend?Why am I letting myself become heart broken over a silly little crush? I need to move on, find someone else, if there will ever be someone else. From that moment on I decide to not let Timothy cloud my thoughts and judgement. I'll move on. I'll focus on other things. I'll put on a brave face. Let's see how this goes...
Sorry for not updating. I had some writers block and didn't know what to do. But I have some ideas know so let's see how that goes. Also only 3 more weeks till once upon a time season 6 is out!!!!!! I can't wait!!!! Anyone else?
That's all for now. Be expecting more updates following this one.
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