Guys, I'm Gay

Dating Guys

I was never a fan of dating guys but I did it a few times in hope to turn myself straight cause I was afraid of my family. The last guy I dated was probably the worst thing I ever experienced, it was in 7th grade and we dated from January 12th until March 25th. And the only way I remember that is because it was Zayns birthday and the day he left One Direction. It was a toxic relationship.

Dating guys never really felt right to me, like it wasn't right, I didn't want it, I never liked the idea of a dick being anywhere near me. But like artificial ;) yeah. I just grossed myself out- I need help. I also need to lose weight cause if I ever want to be in a relationship I have to change! I hate myself.

Can I just tell you guys, that my crush has an ugly picture of me as her home screen. Like it made me happy but it also freaked me out cause she took it while I was watching a Shane Dawson video and I was laughing. Then she gave me a hug and called me sweet heart. Lol. If high school relationships actually worked out in the future- that's hilarious. I'm thinking about kicking it old school and writing her a really cheesy note. Then maybe asking her out. She loves cheesy pick up lines so maybe if I made her something that has to do with that and Suicide Squad- well she'd be all over me then!

Have you guys ever dated a member of the opposite gender? Or same gender? Or no gender? If so, how did it turn out? I was actually wondering today if I was gender fluid cause that would explain my manly feelings and stuff. It's hard to explain. I explained it wrong but oh well.

I love you guys and I'll see you later!