Guys, I'm Gay

What The Hell Is That?

Discovery. That's what it was. It was me feeling something I had never felt before. Attraction towards girls. It was horrifying.

I am born into a very religious family, "God This", "God That". I hate it. I was raised not to trust gays, don't associate with gays- that it's a disease and the people want to go to hell. My family is a bunch of bullshit if you ask me.

My feelings for girls started in fifth grade, towards a very tom-boyish girl. I will not reveal her name for the sake she's my friend. I didn't tell anyone about my confusion, I was scared to cause the world was really judgmental then.

I came out to my best friends Angel and Felicity on New Year's Eve in sixth grade. We were sitting around the living room watching One Direction on the TV and singing along sadly. (This is where it gets sad) Angel decided that it was a fun idea to grind on Felicity and I- and finally when it came my turn... I FREAKING MOANED! It was so embarrassing and I wish I could stab myself in the head for it!  That's when they asked if I was gay and all I could do was nod and cry on the inside.

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Fast forward to now in 9th grade where I run around school openly gay and happy! A really cute girl has a crush on me, and I really like her too but she's not ready for a relationship- but I don't even care cause I'm just happy about it all. Nobody ever has a crush on me- so seeing her everyday at school makes me so flipping happy!

Honestly, just come out to one friend at a time. That's all I can say. Sense 6th grade I've come out to my Mom who said she didn't care but I know she does cause she tried sending me to church this summer- but I didn't go so hahaha. Also, find other gay people who go to your school, then you know you'll always have someone to talk to if something is bothering you. I usually talk to my ex girlfriends older sister. My ex girlfriends family is all gay except their mom! It's the coolest thing ever! Three are bisexual, and one is Trans Bisexual! I find it pretty cool at least.

And also, don't be afraid to take Twitter, make an anonymous profile and explore your gay life there- that's what I did and honestly, it helped me a lot cause I made lots of supportive friends and they helped me come out to more people in my actual life!

Also, I watched plenty of Coming Out videos on YouTube, I think that helped me a lot cause they're all people and they understand that sometimes it's not easy.

Sometimes it gets really hard, but it always get better in the end, so never give up.