I Will Be Strong For You (A Nathan Sykes Fanfic)

38) I Miss Her

I pulled back from the hug. My eyes were stinging from holding back the tears. Why do I hide my feelings? Oh, because I have no one to tell them to. If I do, I am called an attention hog..

I didn't look at Nathan after that hug, but I knew his eyes were stuck on me.

"You aren't okay, are you?" He asked, his voice quiet.

"I though you said you weren't ready yet. That's why you said we couldn't date yet. Or was that just an excuse so you didn't have to be with me?" My voice was quiet. I barely heard it myself.

"I-" He started, but got cut off by someone opening the door.

"Sorry to bug you guys," Max started, looking mad at Nathan, "but its getting late, Nathan. We have an interview with Wendy Williams tomorrow."

Nathan nodded, and with that, Max left, closing the door behind him. The door closed kind of loud, causing a single tear to fall down my cheek.

"Oh, Dani." He brought me closer to him.

I looked up at him. "You just didn't want to be with me, did you?" I asked.

He sighed. "I do, Dani. I just am not ready. I love Ariana. And the press still thinks we are together, so I can't be spotted with you." His voice was soft on the last part.

"So everybody thinks you guys are still together?"

"Yes, and the thing is, I love her too."

"Then, what happened with Elizabeth?"

"She made me. I tried pulling back, and she threatened to hurt Ariana. I had to."

"But you wouldn't do anything when they actually pounded me?"

"I am sorry, love."

"Don't call me love.." No matter how much I loved hearing it.

He sighed. "I know you love it." I looked up at him, he had a small smirk to his lips.

"I got to get to bed." I said quietly. He nodded. I got up and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and washed my face.

I went out of the bathroom, to see Nathan on my bed in sweats and no shirt. I took a seat next to him and put the covers over me.

"Good night, love. I am sorry about tonight." He said, putting the blanket over me completely and turning the lights off.

"Wait, Sykes." I grabbed his arm before he could leave.

"Can you stay?" He looked at me with a raised eye brow. "Please?"

"Okay. Scoot over, love." he said softly. I did as I was told as I felt the bed tip. Nathan lied next to me.

"Now, get to sleep, love." His voice sweet and kind. He's so perfect.

I closed my eyes, wishing it was me who he loved..

"Dani. Wake up, love." I felt someone shake me softly. My eyes fluttered open to reveal Nathan smiling next to me.

"Good sleep?" He asked, raising an eye brow. I didn't show my teeth, but I smiled and nodded.

"Good. You know, I am really sorry about last night. I just have such mixed feelings right now. I don't know." He said, his lips in a straight line.

"Its okay, Sykes. I get it." I nodded.

"I'm really sorry."

"Don't worry about it."

He nodded, his lips in a straight line.