my life now | sequel to cyslm

chapter 12

once nathan and i got home i took off my shoes and sat on the couch. nathan went into the back living room to play with his toys.

"baby boy are you hungry?" i called out as i flipped through the channels.

"umm no." i heard faintly.

i had just settled into my seat comfortably when the door bell rang. i rolled my eyes and got up from my chair to open the door.

"alex you have keys why do you never remember to bring them?!" i grumbled. i opened the door and instead of seeing alex standing behind the door it was the one person i didnt really want to see.

"dont shut the door on me!" ryan yelled before i could process the action ive done many times to him.

"why are you here?"

"do you really have to ask?" he just raised and eyebrow. he looked really nervous and kept bouncing up and down with his hands deep in his jean pockets.

"come in." i said plainly. his eyes shot wide open.

"really?" i nodded and he quickly came inside before i came to my senses.

i motioned for him to sit down in the living room. before i could call nathan ryan grabbed my hand and told me he was too nervous right now and asked if we could talk before he sees his son for the first time. i sat down on the rocking recliner and crossed my legs.

"so how have things been?"

"pretty great actually. since alex came into my life things have been almost perfect." i smiled.

"thats great im really happy for you, but why almost perfect?" he furrowed his eyebrows.

"well theres the normal life stress like work taking care of the kids and alex, plus we are now figuring out plans for our wedding and ever since he found out his mom has cancer he's been really tense and little things set him off badly." i sighed.

"hes not hitting you or the kids is he?!" ryan was quick to be protective.

"no he would never do that to us. he just yells and throws tantrums a lot." he relaxed again and nodded.

"hows life been for you?"

"uhh its ok i guess, im dating this girl named stella shes cool and everything but.."

"but what?" i asked after he trailed off.

"but shes not you.." shocked i just stared at him.

"what?"

"i never had the chance to tell you but im seriously so sorry for how i treated you back in high school.. you were honestly the only girl i have been with that didnt screw me over and cared about my well being and liked me for me and not the persona i put on.." i just kept my gaze away from him. i was stunned, speechless, worried.

"mommy?" nathans voice snapped me out of my own thoughts and emotions.

"in the living room." nate walked in the front room with his batman pjs on.

he looked at ryan with a confused look and ran to me. i sat him on m lap and he whispered in my ear asking who that stranger was making me laugh. ryan's blue hazel eyes were locked on his son and his mouth was curved into a smile. his placed his hands together and held them at his lips. the look on his face was just something you could tell that he was just in love.

"nathan this is ryan, your real dad.." i tried saying the last part quietly because he took the news bad earlier and he didnt even meet ryan.

"hi buddy." nathan stared at ryan snuggling more into me. it kinda broke ryans heart seeing his own son pull away from him but i dont blame nathan, as a child especially on who understands a lot it would kill you to find out one of your parents didnt want anything to do with you.

"nathan talk to him." i said sternly. he moved his away from my shoulder and sat up. nathan waved at ryan making him smile big.

i got up to get my phone and let nathan steal my seat. i grabbed my phone sitting next to ryan to show him the baby pictures of our son and the pictures as nate grew up.

"i wanna see!" nathan slid off the couch and onto ryan's lap. he took my phone looking at the pictures as he lounged in his dads arms.

"i see your mom got you into batman." ryan laughed and i rolled my eyes playfully.

"you know who batman is?!" nathan looked up and ryan chuckled nodding.

" i have seen many shows and movies about batman when i was your age."

"really?" my phone started to ring so i took the call while i let the boys talk.

i answered the call from my mom who said she would be over to see tyler who was coming from lukes house. i told her about ryan being here and finally meeting nathan so she was worried but once i told her nathan is actually warming up now she was relieved.

"hey ryan would you like to stay for dinner tonight?"

"would that cause problems?" i thought about it and shook my head no.

"if problems want to start ill put people in time out" i laughed.

i took a picture of nathan who was sitting ryans torso holding his phone and ryan was just taking in all of his features.

"the rest of the gang should be here soon." ryan nodded and suddenly nathan got off of his and pulled his hand up stairs to show him his room and toys.

"is it ok angel?" ryan asked before going up.

"he wants you up there go before he changes his mind." i smile. ryan picked up his son and went up the stairs.