Tired
I am tired
So very tired
Of being tired
Can't you see?
The black rings under my eyes
That I try to cover with make up
My eyes only open half way
No strength to fully open
I'm falling asleep in class
Something I've never done
Until now
I'm body aches
I feel like I'm 60
My head pounds contently
Migraines are more frequent
Every little task drains me
I can't play in gym anymore
It's too difficult
I don't have the energy to spare
My muscles have weakened
Picking up things are harder
Sometimes I can't hold my children
I am quick to lash out in anger or frustration
I have a shorter temper
I want to climb in bed and stay there
Getting up in the morning is getting harder
No matter how much I sleep
It's not enough!
9 hours turned into 5 which changed into 4 and stand there.
I survived on that for years
Never had a problem
Now my knees hurt
Not just my right one but my left too
Stairs are painful
And you know what
I fucking deal with it
I don't complain
I want no pity
I don't want I'm sorry
I dont want anything to be said
For this can't last forever
You do realize that, right ??
Something will end up happening
This will change but for now.....
I'm too tired
To finish these thoughts
~Katie~
