I'm not okay
And I don't know if I'll ever be again
My dog's death was traumatic
Every time I close my eyes I hear her struggling to breathe as she lays in my arms
My house too fucking quiet that I can't sleep
My oldest dog is depressed and won't eat
And she wasn't in good shape before my other dog died. But now she's worse and I know I'll lose her soon too.
Is it sad that my dog just died yet I want a puppy? I keep dreaming I somehow get a puppy only to wake up and realize I'm not getting one and my dog's death actually happened .
I know you all won't understand
I'm numb
I've laid in bed for 2 days because I don't have the energy to get up and I think what's the point? What is the point of getting up if she's not going to greet me.
It will take me a very long time to be ok again
I don't even wanna be around and dogs
And that's saying something because animals are my life.
School tomorrow is going to be rough
I don't really believe in God
But can y'all keep be in your prayers?
Or something
I need all the good lucky I can get I guess
Thank you all
~Katie~
