In October I purchased flight tickets to Florida.
I left New York November 17th
And I don't go back til December 8th
So I have a week left of my vacation
Don't take it personally I didn't tell many people
I just wanted peace of that makes sense?
I purchased the tickets with my own money
Or well the money I had left
It's funny I can feel so alive here and so numb at the same time.
I've thought of staying here and just not returning to New York
I've always loved it here. This here is MY paradise.
But it's all just a luxury day dream when it comes down to it.
I don't have the money to ship my stuff down here
I'd miss my dad and my dog Bailey
I don't think I could leave them
Or rather them leave me
But the temptation of staying is overwhelming
But I know it's just me running from my problems
But who doesn't wanna run?
To cut all the ties that are holding you down
And just run free
And fast
Without limits
Freedom
But again maybe that's all a day dream
The pressure has been creeping up on me again
Sometimes I feel as if it's swallowed me
Hi it's Friday December 6th and I have realized I never posted this. Smh 🤦🏼♀️
Sorry for the...rant?
I write or well type what I feel if you haven't noticed
Sometimes it's more raw then I realize
-Katie
