that girl j.c (completed)

Thirty-five

(Listen to the above song while reading) ❤

"Hi Jc."

Jc's POV:

She looked different, very very different. Her cheekbones were more defined than I've ever seen them, and she had gained some muscle back in her body. She was sexy for sure, but she didn't look like her, she didn't move like her. I stood there staring, my mouth open just a slight. 
"Jc? Jc?" Kian waved his hand in front of my face. I shook back into reality as fast as I could.
"Yes?"
"Do you wanna come party with us?" he asked casually, smirking at me. I shrugged my shoulders and looked over at Lindsay who was still hiding behind Elaine.
"Cmon it'll be fun!" Elaine nudged, she never usually bothered me to go out with her. weird.
"Okay yeah sure." I shrugged my shoulders again, this time with more of an oomf.
"Hurry! We're leaving right away!" Elaine tells Kian and I. We look at eachother and instantly start racing to the bathroom. I push him to the side and he falls on to the couch, bouncing on to the floor. I thumped up the stairs, laughing with every step I took and slammed into the bathroom door, knocking it open and locking it behind me. I shaved my face fuzz and brushed my teeth, than took my black bandana and wrapped it around my wild curls.
"Jc! Hurry the fuck up!" Kian knocked on the door impatiently. I waited for him to knock again before unlocking the door and walking out. I ran to my room to put on my black sweats that clung at the ankles, and a maroon tee shirt that showed off my abs before pulling on a pair of blue converse.

on the drive...

"Where are we even going?" Kian whined. We were in the backseat of Elaine's car on our way to who the fuck knows.
"I told you three times!" Elaine replies annoyed, "We're going clubbing!"
"Chill." Lindsay laughed from the front seat. Shivers tickled down my spine, I've missed her laugh so much. I pulled out my phone and texted Kian.

j- u think she's gonna take me back?
I heard his phone go off and saw him read the message.
k- u want her back?
j- ofc i do dumbass.
j- i love her
k- i think u got a chance. make the first move (:
j- thx man
k- (:

at the club;

The music was so loud, I couldn't even hear myself think. I saw the girls and Kian go out and grab drinks, but I kinda stayed behind and sat at an empty table, debating on what to do.
"Here." I look up and Lindsay passes me a drink.
"Oh.. Thanks." I smiled and placed it on the table, not even taking a sip.
"Aren't you gonna drink it?" she asks, sitting down across from me.
"Not really in the mood." I give her a weak smile and adjusted my bandana, my hand was shaking but I don't think she noticed.
"So... how've you been?" I yell over the music.
"Good! You?"
"Good!" having a conversation was hopeless. I couldn't hear anything.

Lindsay's POV:

"Hey! You wanna dance?" I look to my left and see a guy, about my age. He was wearing black sweats and a crooks n castles sweater. I look over at Jc who seems like he doesn't want anything to do with me, so I accepted. He leads me on to the dance floor and pulls me against him.
"You're damn sexy." he says in my ear as the song changes. "Wanna get out of here?" I pull away and take his hands off my waist.
"I'm good." I start to walk away, but he turns me around and grabs my ass, slamming me against his body.
"Cmon... it'll just be for a little while." I tried to take his hands off, but he wouldn't let go.
"Let me go." I tell him in my most threatening voice, attempting to get away from him. It was clear that I was struggling.
"Hey! Let her go!" Jc comes up beside me, his testosterone was going through the roof.
"Oh yeah? What are you gonna do about it?" he let's go of me to stare at Jc. Jc's body tensed up, and I saw anger flash through his eyes.
"He's not worth it. It's okay. Let's go." I say to Jc, pushing him back. He takes one look at me and his face softens, turning his frown into a sweet apologetic smile.
"Will you come out for a walk with me? " I ask him, hoping he will agree. He nods his head and we walk out the door.

on the walk;

"What's up?" he asks me as we walk past a little bookstore, it was closed by now. The brisk fall air whooshed across my face, pushing my hair behind me.
"I needed to get out of there. Thank you for coming." I smile, sitting down on a bench. Jc hesitates, but sits down next to me.
"I've missed you." I admit, turning to look at him.
"I've missed you too." He places his hand on my lap, and I placed mine over his. "I'm sorry for hurting you. I never wanted that."
"I know. I'm sorry for making such a big deal about it." I rub the top of his hand with my thumb nervously.
"You had every right to. I was the one who fucked up. You know I dream about you every night?"
"You too?"
"I miss you so fucking much Lindsay. You don't understand."
"I do." I lean in and lock my lips with his passionately. I grab a fistful of his hair and hold it while he grabs my body and pushes me so close that I'm almost sitting on top of him.
The kiss lasted a long time, almost long enough to make up for the last six months. By the time we were finished, our hair was in a tangle of messes and his mouth was smeared with my red lipstick, I'd imagine mine was too. I took my finger and wiped it off his face, and took my sleeve to wipe mine, just in case.
"Will you be my girlfriend?"

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

The question rang through my head. Did I want to be? Sure I missed him, but was I ready for that kind of commitment right now? I took a long, deep breath before answering him.
"No. I'm sorry Jc I can't." I saw his face drop. "Not right now. I'm not ready for 'us' to happen again. In the future, yes. But now, no." I pulled away from him and placed my hands on my lap.
"But you just kissed me.. I don't understand."
"I kissed you because I love you, but we just can't be together right now. Give me time, I'm trying to get my life together. Trying to find who I am without you, and if you still want me after that. Than yeah, I'll be your girlfriend." I got up and walked away, back towards the club, leaving him on the bench to think things over.

-

I got to the club and found Elaine and Kian making out in the corner, so I grabbed them and told them it was time to leave. I didn't want to ruin their night but, I needed to go home.
The whole ride back to my car was hell. I had to hold my tears the entire time so that Jc wouldn't see them, I didn't want him to know that I was hurt, but I knew he was too. He stared out the window like a lost puppy dog with no where to go. I felt horrible for rejecting him, but it had to be done. We got to my car and Elaine got out with me, she knew I was upset. 
"What's wrong? You've been so quiet on the way here." she asked curiously, rubbing my shoulder. I couldn't hold them in any longer; tears fell down my face and I gasped for air.
"I told him we couldn't be together. That I'm not ready. I think I just made a huge mistake." Elaine pulled me against her, squeezing my body.
"It's gonna be okay. You made the right decision. If you're not ready, you can't force yourself." She rubbed my back in circles, trying to calm me down, but nothing worked.

"I understand Lindsay. If you're not ready than you're not ready. I'll wait for you." I heard from behind me. Jc stood there with a grief stricken face and his hands in his pockets.
"I'm so sorry for making you feel like this." I walked up to him and placed my hands on his cheeks. "Goodbye Jc." I pressed my lips against his gently. "I love you."
"I love you too." I got into my car and drove home.

a/n: I didn't really give you guys a warning, but.. this is the last chapter of this book. im going to be making a sequel so you can go check that out! ill be uploading the prologue today.thank you much for reading, it's been fun (: xxx

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