The Virgin Mary [Edelbario Series#1]

KABANATA 54

Matteo Point of View...

I've been drinking alcohol everynight. The pain in my chest was pulling me into a thick page. I hurt Mary so much and it makes me guilty. I do not know how to tell her everything. I do not know how I could take away from her to destruction. I need to hurt her and I need to avoid her from me. I don't know what will happen to me when she disappears forever in my life. Yes I admit I made a mistake, because I brought her into this situation. I brought her to this disaster. You can't blame me because I am doing this for good. You do not know what the real reason behind.

I drink wine again then stomped it returned to the table. I have included this two stupid here to drink now. Even if they don't know the reason, why I am willing to return to Venus they dont asked me for it. At wala rin akong balak sabihin sa kanila ang lahat. They do not know why I am in now. I refuse to incriminate this two stupid bastard! My decision still troubled in my mind if what happened if i choose Mary. What happened if i choose her to stay with me forever. I can't imagine if were both happy if i choose her for everything i was. Mary did hurt so much and I cannot forgive myself. Im stupid! really stupid.

"Whoa dude, kanina ka pa umiinom ng alak. Uubosin mo yata ang alak ko dito sa bar huh?" Clifford smilled widely. I dont care if I exhaust all the wine now.

"You're complaining?" I asked in irritated tone.

"Gago..... Hindi ako nagrereklamo noh. Mas maganda nga yan. Healthy sa katawan at siguradong lulusog ka niyan, right Robi?" They both laughing. Hindi ko alam kong nababaliw na ba sila o sadyang baliw na talaga.

"Oo nga dude. Sige pa uminom ka pa, madami pa sa counter gusto mo?" Robi asked in sarcastic way. I don't mind them. My gray eyes focus in a wine of glass. I showed them my empty expression. I hurt, I guilt and im full of anger.

"Tssss stupid!" I answered. They laughing again. Lumagok ulit ako ng alak sa isang inom lang. I really hate the music right now, the smoke everywhere the people who are flirting each other. Tss very not interested.

"Matanong nga dude. Bakit kayo nag hiwalay ni Mary?" I emediately look Robi for his stupid question. Nanigas ang tuhod ko at muntikan ng mahulog ang basong alak saking kamay. Nahuli kong siniko sya ni Clifford. I grinned my teeth. My eyes flickered, then transformed into a wild beast. Stupid question!

"Im done using her, im done with her. No more, no less. Im bored for a kind of girl like her." I answered in a serious way. They eyes focus on me na para bang hindi sila makapaniwala sa sagot ko. I looked a way. Keeping an eye on truth was one of the hardest part.

"Grabe dude mukhang nasaktan mo ng sobra yung babae." Robi again. He's annoying, he really looks like a girl. He really interested between me and Mary. I keep my eyes on clifford. Tahimik lang sya habang inikot-inikot ang baso na may lamang alak.

"I don't care. If i done it's done, period." I answered. They look seriously now. Uminom ulit ako ng alak saka iyon binaba ng padabog sa mesa. They face went into an expressionless.

"Nakakabigla lang kasi dude. Your not even like that to the other girls. Pero nong dumating si Mary ay bigla kang naging seryoso." Clifford on a first asked. Naikuyom ko ang aking kamao. I want to punch this fucking two bastard.

"Tell me, are you both gay?" I asked in a sarcastic way. They eyes big. "Kailan pa kayo naging chismosa?" I continuely.

"Puta dude. Kami bakla?" Turo ni Robi sa kanyang sarili. Clifford secretly laughing. "Nagtatanong lang naman kami,"