You're Hurting Me From Inside Of My Head- Nathan Sykes vampire fanfic

Chapter 17

Dedicated to MeganTWxx for writing a short kiss scene for me :)

Gah! Sorry about the late updates! I've been away and busy and stuff!

Sorry it's rubbish too! I had very little time and I'm just sorry. I may be late to update too because I've got lots of mocks and an actual test so yeah.

Oh and I realised that to a lot of you, it may seem as if I am making many spelling errors such as realised. I am English therefore it is spelled like that and not realized, just thought I'd clear it up.

Lili's POV

I woke up and was lying on my back on... A bed? I opened my eyes and looked up and saw that I was on a gorgeous deep red 4 poster bed... I had no idea where I was whatsoever. I heaved myself up so that I was resting on my elbows and looked around the room. I was in a luxuriously decorated bedroom and in the corner sat Nathan who was wringing out his hands nervously and staring at the floor as if it was something of great interest. (Just so I was sure, I looked over at the floor in case what he was doing was valid- It wasn't.)

"If you stare at that spot any longer you'll burn at hole into it." I said lightheartedly whilst chuckling slightly however he did not join in. He heard me, although I imagine he wasn't listening, and jumped slightly like he was surprised that I had woken up, I still wonder how long I had been absent from the world. He smiled at me slightly but I could detect some sadness in his eyes that I was determined to investigate.

"Where are we anyway?" I asked, taking in my surroundings once again.

"Back at HQ. This is your room from now on, best in the building I'm told." His tone was flat but it sounded forced, like he was trying to show no emotion.

"This is pretty amazing, it's just stunning! Anyway, I really need to stop passing out like that, it's irritating." I laughed lightly because I was talking irrelevant nonsense but he said nothing and began staring at the floor again. What he was doing began to worry me because I had hoped he would be fine with everything but I suppose that was a stupid thing to have hoped.

"Nathan? What's wrong?" I said once I had made my way over to where he was, leaning on the top of another chair. He raised his head up and looked at me. The sadness in his eyes was no longer visible, the emotion was dominated by another- anger. I was shocked and confused, what did he have to be angry about? Sure, we were in a bad situation which was frightening and shocking but it wasn't really something to be angry about.

"What's wrong? What's wrong? You told me that earlier and you're asking me what's wrong? Lili, what's right?" He shouted, he shot up from his seat quickly and stormed closer to me causing the chair I was leaning on to be knocked, I lost my balance and fell. The worst thing about it was that I knew he was holding himself back from exploding with anger and if I pressed him, he would lose it. He backed away from me and started pacing as I scrambled to my feet.

"Nathan, listen to me. I know it's going to be hard but I won't change. We'll get through this, okay?" I said, approaching him slowly as if he was a feral animal. I stood directly in front of him, less than 10cm away from him and he stopped fidgeting at last.

"Okay?" I repeated again but more quieter this time around. He placed his hand on my cheek and began to nod very gently. I felt overcome with relief because I knew that I needed him beside me otherwise I couldn't do any of this or continue to be the person that I am. Suddenly, he took his hand away and pushed me away from him.

"No! No, it's not going to be okay, is it? I don't... I don't know if I can... I'm not-" He started off shouting, like he knew exactly what he would say but soon he trailed off and mumbled, unsure. I was confused at first but suddenly realisation dawned on me as I figured out what he meant by his incoherent mumbling.