A Song For You[ASFY]

Stanza 39

Stanza 39

 

 

Ariel: Issa!

 

Sabi niya sa kabilang linya. His voice was trembling. I can sense that he's nervous. 

 

Ariel: Issa! Issa, I'm sorry. I'm sorry sa lahat ng ginawa ko sa iyo simula nung napahiya kita sa classroom noong grade six tayo. Sorry dahil hindi kita pinansin after graduation at ngayong 4th year lang ulit ako naglakas loob na kausapin ka. Sorry dahil minsan hindi ko napapansin yung efforts mo para sa akin. And thank you sa lahat. Thank you sa mga effort mo na minsan hindi ko naappreciate. Thank you dahil hindi mo pinapakitang napapagod ka sa ugali ko, kahit alam kong pagod ka na. You didn't give up. And yes, the engagement is true. But I want to spend my days with you before I get married to someone I barely know. If it's okay with you, you could treat me as your friend. Pero crush pa rin kita, yun ang totoo. Melissa, don't let go yet. It's not yet the time. I realized that just now. And since alam mo na na engaged ako, hindi ka na siguro magugulat kung ikakasal ako.

I was quiet while he was talking.

 

Ariel: Melissa. Please listen. Wala akong paki kung hindi ka magsasalita, basta makinig ka lang. Please always remember that when we'll be separated, never think that what we had was false. It's always been true. The words, my actions, our obstacles... they were all true. And I want you to know that... you are my ultimate crush. Nakakahiya man pero... yun ang totoo eh. So... bye for now.

He really is getting married. Naputol na ang tawag.

"Sitting there frozen won't do anything." 

Napatingin ako sa hagdan. Andoon si kuya Nat, nakatayo. Nilapitan niya ako at niyakap.

"It's okay bunso. You still have us."

"Okay lang naman talaga kuya. It's for their company and since may connection din tayo sa Buenaflor, kasali na rin ang company natin sa shares. I understand kuya. And I expected this." sabi ko.

"You are a strong girl, Steph. I know you are." 

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MARCH NA! 1 week before graduation and seniors are now busier than the teachers. Lahat kami inaasikaso yung requirements namin. Clearance and papers. Hindi ko na iniisip yung ibang bagay. Takbo dito. Takbo doon. Tapos may practices pa for graduation ceremony. This is so UGH.

Naalala ko tuloy yung practice for graduation noong grade six. Napangiti ako. Wow. I was that stupid and clumsy before? And now I am one of the kids people hate and admire. At isa pa ako sa mga short girls noon, ngayon halos nasa pinakalikod na ako eh. Puberty hit my height right. Not quite with the face.

Lunch break. Kasama ko ang barkada, without Ariel kasi may inaasikaso daw siya sa SC. Busy rin yun. Pabayaan. So anyway, busy nga rin kami diba? This is not what we expected. It's too much. And ito lang ata ang break namin after a week of being busy. Ang student council na lang ang busy ngayon dahil tinutulungan nila ang teachers sa preparation for the graduation ceremony. This is so sad but happy to know that we are now about to leave the stage where we could be children at the same time adults. At saan ako mag-aaral? Sa labas ng bansa. Sa Paris ako mag-aaral. Si Kuya Nat nagdecide at sabay na rin kami ni Shane doon. He said he though I might need focus. Kung maka need focus. Pero tama siya, malay niyo pagbalik ko ng Pinas eh magugulat lahat.