Dirty Little Secret

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A/N i hate to say this cos it makes me sound big headed but my other story based on Alice in Wonderland hasn't delivered like I thought it would and therefore has lead me to the decision that I'm going to delete it. I say this as all of my other stories have really took off and my Alice one hasn't and as vane and cocky as that makes me sound, I don't want to waste my time writing it if its not going to deliver, I'd rather write this one and only this one, thank you for the support and comments though it really means sooo much to me!

Beca's POV
Its Friday and im going back to school properly on Monday but tonight is the night of the musical so im going in for that to do lighting and music, plus i want to see my work on the music up on the big stage. The drama club are the main actors (chosen by Chloe for obvious reasons) but Stacie and Sophie are creeping here and there in some of the dance numbers so of course I'll be going along to offer my support.

My dad is being a usual dick but is trying to speak to me but im not having any of it, he's ruined my life so he can pay for it now. I've spent my day today making mixes in my room on my laptop, the only gadget my parents would let me have, and eating fatty foods cos im constantly having a depression session. My dad has also decided that during homeroom i "must" go to the music room and work on my music for the Winter Concert in December and even though i have nothing prepared im debating whether to ask Jesse and Benji if they wanna reincarnate our band and perform together or if i wanna do something on my own...i dunno, im not in the right frame of mind to make any formal decisions at the moment.

I finished another mix and took my headphones off and placed them on the desk beside my laptop and checked the time, 3:40pm, just two hours till i need to be back at school and just at that moment there was a knock at my door and in popped Cammie.

"Hey" she greeted cheerily, "can i come in?" She asked, i nodded and she came and sat on the end of my bed, "how're you doing?"

"Yeah im good, are you?" She nodded.

"Yeah great, i ate three meals today including Ben's banana yoghurt with granola...pregnancy sucks sometimes" she breathed, i chuckled at her.

"Thank you for yesterday by the way" i said quietly.

"That's alright, what're sisters for eh?" She smiled, "are you sure you're okay?" She asked, i forced a smile and tried pushing away my thoughts out of my mind but i can't and i-

"I think i wanna elope with Chloe" i spat out, Cammie's face hardened into a stunned expression.

"Like, leave?" She questioned. I nodded slowly, "Beca, what? You can't just...go"

"I want to though Cammie, we can't stay here" i whispered.

"But Beca i need you here, where would you go?" I could tell she was getting upset, so i twisted round and sat beside her on the edge of the bed.

"I haven't figured that out yet, but i love her Cammie and i want to be with her for the rest of my life without a doubt and you and i both know we can't be together here" i explained, she sniffled.

"What about me and the baby? I need my big sister here...and i-" she choked out a sob and i tutted sympathetically and wrapped an arm round her shoulders, pulling her into me.

"Don't you get that this is a hard decision Cammie? I haven't decided for a hundred percent yet but im gonna suggest it to her tonight, i need you to not say a thing to anyone, please?" I tilted her chin up and i could see the pain in her navy blue eyes, she nodded forcefully and i kissed her forehead before hugging her into my chest. My dad appeared at the door.

"Oh everything okay girls?" He asked, i glanced away from him without a word.

"Uh...yeah, just being emotional" Cammie giggled and wiped her tears.