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Chapter 43: Valentines Gift

Hi Sarah. Hehe.

I’m sorry for this whole thing. I thought this would be the best way to express to you what I feel. I’d hate to ruin our friendship since we just started being friends and I knew about you and Gerald and how you worked out… And yeah. I’m G.A. I’m your greatest admirer.

Well, yeah. This antic of mine is kind of a headache to you siguro. I mean, I know you’ll think I’m crazy, but, I wanted to clarify things to you.

First of all, Maja and I are not together. Hindi kami. Even with Jessy. Hindi ko sila girlfriend ngayon because I know my heart falls for someone else. Well, hindi naman fall talaga as in ‘in love’. Pero admire. And ikaw yun.

Second, you know I had a crush on you back then even before Catch Me, I’m In Love. Since we worked together, I started to admire you more and more. Soon enough I was able to establish friendship with you through the incident where we were locked on your dressing room. When you were narrating to me your hurts and pain upon seeing Gerald again after 15 months, I knew that you must not be treated that way ever again. I knew you were fragile. You were heartbroken. Since then, I wanted to take care of you. Inisip ko, if you’ll be with me, I’ll make you happy because you light up the world with your smile, e. Maganda ka pa rin naman kahit nakasimangot ka, pero ang pangit tignan na kahit nagmamahal ka, nakasimangot ka. When you love someone, whatever may happen, you must not get out on your mind that you are in love, you are happy with him. Pero nga alam ko you haven’t moved on yet, I told myself that I won’t express my feelings for you yet. If two months passed and you freed him on your heart, I’ll court you. I’ll let you know that you’re the most beautiful girl in the world and nobody shall harm you or hurt you. That’s why I’m always there. I always pay a visit on your location shoots with your movie, I bring you food, and I’m there if you’re down or whenever you need me. Kahit wala pa yung two months, at least kahit papaano malalaman mo kung gaano kita gusto alagaan.

Until someone from the movie crew told me na nagkakamabutihan na kayo ulit ni Ge. Na he planned something for your first shoot of the year. Na he said I love you sa’yo. I admit, I was in pain when I knew about that. I joined a triathlon in Subic at saktong nakita kita nung pauwi na ako. And you were crying. Akala ko you rejected Gerald. But it was about a secret. A secret that paved the way para magkaroon lalo ng mas malaking chance para magkaroon ng second chance. Doon ko narealize na bibitawan na kita. Na hindi na ako aasa.

Dahil din doon, I realized that we’re better off as friends and you’re happy with Gerald. You really love him, right? And siguro it was mere infatuation lang, and awa dahil nga ang isang tulad mo ay di dapat saktan.

I just want to let you know Sars, I never took advantage of you habang magkaibigan tayo, habang kasa-kasama mo ako noon. Hindi yun paraan ng panliligaw. Ang tawag doon, caring for a best friend.

Happy hearts day, Sarah. I just want to let this whole thing out of me. And gusto ko lang sabihin sa’yo na when we see each other, don’t think about this confession I made. Wag mo kong tignan bilang isang taong may gusto sa’yo noon, pero bilang isang tropa tropa. Ako pa rin si Matty mo: yung pinagsasabihan mo ng secrets, yung tinutukso mo, yung katawanan mo.

I’m happy for you Sars. See you again soon! Busy na tayo ngayon e. Hehe.

Greatest Admirer, signing off.

Matty

P.S. Kaya varsity jacket kasi resemblance sya ng pang car race. Hehe. And kaya handkerchief kasi nga I don’t want you to weep. Be happy Sars. :)

Finold ko nang muli ang card at inilagay ito sa bakanteng upuan sa tabi ko. Ngayon ko lang sya nabasa habang pabyahe na kami pauwi. Nawalan na kasi ako ng oras kanina dahil tapos na yung break namin. Tinulungan ako ni Coco kanina na kalimutan muna yung about kay Matteo as G.A.