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13 - Diary Entry

Hello.

This Morning pumunta ako sa school para na din mag-enroll. Umpisa palang naman ng sem kaya pwede pa ^O^ Yey! Hahaha. Makakapasok na din ako by next week. Political Science ang kinuha kong course, para pag dumating yung time e kaya ko na syang ipaglaban mula kay Seokmin. Lol. Asa. Ka-year ko tuloy sila Mingyu, nag-stop kasi ako last year so ayun.

Hindi ko na plinanong magpakita kila Chan kaya dumiretso na 'ko pauwi pero nakita padin ako ni Seungcheol hyung. Kaya ayun, pumunta muna kami sa Garden ng School. Oh god, bakit ayaw nya 'kong paniwalaan na nagbakasyon lang ako. Haha.

Nakwento nya din yung tungkol kila Wonwoo at Mingyu, ganun na pala sila kalala mag-away. Pero buti hindi umaabot sa pisikalan. Tanga din kasi ni Mingyu, ayaw pang aminin yung tunay na dahilan kung bakit nakipag-hiwalay kay Wonwoo nag-imbento pa, kuno pinag-tripan nya lang si Wonwoo. Pero yung totoo, homophobic ang parents nya at lagi syang sinasaktan pag nakikita sila. Kala talaga namin basagulero yan e. Mukha din kasing gangster noon. Hays.

Etong gabi naman, nag-date kami ni Chan. Haha! Sabi pa, "Hyung, We may not have had enough time but let's fill it with joy. Don't spend the rest crying and don't fill it with sorrow because we had today.." Gusto kong matawa at the same time sampalin sya kaso kasi may point sya.

But if only he know how tired I am but still.. pretending to be okay. Pretending to be brave. To feel that no one's there during all this shits, how the pain is the only thing I can feel knowing that it's the only thing that's real, how sorrow consumes my every thought, how I slowly losing everything I've got and how much I want to tell them that what they see outside is just my personal disguise and what's hide underneath is me that they can't even begin to imagine. Yeah, pretending.

-Hoonie
Day94/Wednesday