HIS DIARY √ soonhoon [editing]

32 - Diary Entry

Hello.

I found myself walking. Not knowing where to go, but I end up here. In this special place that I know. In this place near the park, sitting at the bench that made for two. But one side is empty and that place is only meant for him.

I stare at where he used to lay his head whenever we're here. I closed my eyes and his face is all I see. Wearing a smile that could always brighten my mood like nobody else could, eyes that could always stole my words away, the taste of his kiss on my lips, the warmth of his touch on my skin. As I look out at the shining diamond stars, memories overtake me. Begging to make some more.

I just stay silent while simply thinking. Asking myself if I could really survive drowing in this misery I made. I wipe away my tear. It's almost more than I can bear.

Tingin ko'y dito ako dinala ng aking mga paa dahil bawat sulok sa lugar na 'to ay nagdadala ng napakaraming masasayang alaala. Nandito ako dahil nag-iisip ako ng pwedeng ipanglaban sa poem contest bukas. Ako ang magrrepresent ng buong 3rd year class. Tsk. Matagal na 'kong di nakakapagsulat kaya nahihirapan ako. Hindi naman sa mahirap dahil dapat ko lang naman i-express ang nararamdaman ko kaso hays.. kailangan ko ng inspirasyon.

I don't know where to start. And if I will write about what I am feeling I don't think I can express it with words. No words can express how much I love him.. and no words can express how hurt I am right now.

-Hoonie
Day72/Thursday