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Jihoon Lee
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Soonyoung: (▶—————10:10)

"Hello, Woozi! Sorry kung di ako nakakapag reply sa messages mo. But I want you to hear me out..

.. for the last time.

Pa'no ko ba 'to sisimulan. Hayyy. The first time I saw you when we were sophomores, you already caught my attention. Actually naiinis talaga ako dahil andaming nakakapansin sayo kahit pandak ka. I'm the center of attraction before you came. Nainis ako dahil pakiramdam ko naaagaw mo sakin ang lahat. Madali mong nakuha mo ang loob nila dahil napaka talented mo. Nabalitaan kong magaling kang kumanta, sumayaw, mag play ng iba't ibang instruments .. at ang cute mo daw.

Naaalala mo nung sumali ako sa Theatre Club? Ginawa ko yun dahil alam kong mas magaling padin ako sayong sumayaw, kaso nagulat ako dahil kayang-kaya mo pala 'kong sabayan. Naging magkakompetensya tayo sa bagay na yun at syempre ako lagi ang nananalo. Pero habang tumatagal hindi ko na din naisip yun dahil nalilibang ako kapag magkasama tayo. Cold ka sa una pero mabait ka pala. Dun kita unti-unting nakilala.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari satin pero kahit magkaibigan lang tayo, pinag-aawayan natin yung mga bagay na pang-magkarelasyon. Nagseselos ka kapag may iba akong kasama at nakikita mo kaming masaya, nagagalit ka pag di ako nagpapaalam sayo sa tuwing aalis ako, naiinis kapag di ako kumakain sa oras, nagtatampo kapag hindi ako nagpaparamdam dahil sa sobrang busy ko. Parang ako din sa'yo. Niligawan kita pero napaka-hirap mo palang makuha, di gaya ng iniisip ko.

Nung naging tayo, yun ang pinakamasayang oras ng buhay ko. You don't know how proud I was to call you mine. Siguro napaka bait ko sa past life ko para mapasakin ang isang Lee Jihoon na pinapangarap ng lahat.

Those beautiful eyes of yours that I couldn't last a day without seeing them. The prettiest smile I've ever seen. As in napaka-ganda. Nakakahawa. The cutest height that suits you perfectly.

Sa loob ng dalawang taon, lahat ng away na mahirap lampasan ay napagdaanan natin. Magkasalungat man ang mga gusto, nagkakasundo parin tayo sa huli. H-higit don ay ramdam kong m-mahal na mahal natin ang isa't isa. You were going to be my husband. Everything went great and seemed perfect..

B-but I wonder why things happened the way they did.. I miss the way how we used to be, the hugs, kisses, childish arguments, silly dates, morning texts and late night calls. We used to do everything to each other. We used to be h-happy.

T-The times we had, the memories we shared was the best time for me. But those days are now long gone. How I wish things could be different? You chose the path to be your own. You l-left me without uttering a single word.

W-while you weren't here, everything changed. My entire life got wrecked and my whole world rearranged. I'm not blaming you but myself for expecting more than I should have out of you. I'm still coping with strife. N-nobody knows what I go through everyday, Jihoon. And now I g-gave up. Hindi ko na kaya.

I know I should move on but I rather die. I will now say goodbye to you whom I knew for a time. I love you, Lee Jihoon. And you're still the one that I love the most. Remember that."