Dreams

I'm Sorry

This is yet another one of those chapters. But right now, this one is serious, talking about my writing.

I feel like I've been neglecting my stories and I have no inspiration to write and I'm freaking out because I feel I have way too many books on here, and I'm not happy about it.

I'm beginning to question my love for fanfics and writing these. One part of me is really not finding the happiness in any of it, while the other part is desperately trying to convince myself that I still love them. As I really want to. I really want to keep writing like this and being happy with my stories like I used to be. But I'm not, and I feel like I can't. I'm really hoping this is another phase and that it will blow over and I'll keep writing, but I don't know right now. I'm really just getting more ad more confused the more I think about it, as all I know is right now I don't feel like the same, happy person.

Everything's fine, trust me, I just am so afraid because I feel like I want to take another break or something, but I don't want you guys to forget me. In one year, over 300 people have followed me, and that means so much and I don't want to lose everyone, but I just can't write fan fiction, no matter how hard I try. I'm so sorry.

I've really thought this through, and I decided I'm going to take another break, I don't know how long it will be but it will hopefully be short, but when I come back, things are changing. Just slightly, but still. I'm going to finish Scars, and I'm going to finish Dear Mr. Day, but I'm not going to write Nicotine at Nine anymore. I'm so sorry. I just have no inspiration or ideas and the story was going nowhere, and it's a shame because I really loved the character of Clara. Maybe her and Dan will come back one day, but for now I don't know. I'm sorry.

After I finished Scars and Dear Mr. Day, I was planning on a big, five book series of Phil fics, now I don't know. I really just don't know. I'm going to wait for the future to come to think about that.

I don't know if I'm unhappy, or what, but this is so painful to write. Because I've seen two authors on here that have left Wattpad and fanfics because they lost interest in them, and they're changing interests, and I hate it. It makes me so sad that they don't like writing things I loved reading, and it makes me sad that they're leaving. And I don't want to be on that list too. I'm so sorry.

Will I quit Wattpad? I want to say no, because I love Wattpad, but the thought of me leaving is so terrifying, and I never want to leave this account. I mean, to me, the TakenByTheAngels account is beginning to feel worn out and sad, but I want it to be new and happy again, and this is really making me upset, because I'm so confused.

Who knows, maybe I'll come back in a few days, or a week, or a month, completely back to normal and happy, but I really can't see that right now and I'm so sorry.

I'm just so confused.