Dreams

I've Just Realized Something Horrifying

I've just realized something.

Something so sad, so traumatic, so horrifyingly scary, you're going to cry. (Or maybe just sit in a corner wearing a tin foil hat and muttering things to yourself).

One day. On one horrifying day...

Doctor Who will stop airing.

Shelock will end.

The ShayTards daily vlogs will end.

Every YouTuber out there now (Charlie, Alex, Dan, Phil, PJ, Chris, Ian, Anthony, Shane, Craig, Shay, Joey, Kalel, Justine, Toby, Jack, Finn, Caspar, Marcus, Carrie, Charles, Alli, Jack, Dean, Ray, Ryan, Pewds, EVERYONE) will grow up and decide that they won't want to do YouTube anymore. They will settle down and stop making videos. They will end.

Everything I've ever known and loved will come to an end, and all at once, it will come crashing down on me. It's like when you lose a companion. There's no more Rose, Amy, Rory, Martha, Donna, No one. And soon, no Doctor.

It's already happened with Harry Potter. I've read that last page, I've seen the end credits to the last movie, and it's all over now.

And soon, it will happen to everything that makes us happy now.

Hell, one day, Wattpad will decide to stop, and everything I've ever written here, every friend I've made, every word I've typed, every comment or vote I've posted. Gone. And to the 275 of you out there that don't personally know me...

No more Layla.

And I'll be living my Life, just like the rest of you, without ever knowing anything more than a username.

Every character I've loved. Every game I've played. Every book I've read. Every person who has made me happy. Will leave.

We all leave one day, but when somone leaves you, but you know they're still out there somewhere, that's what horrifies me. For example, Shay and Collete and their whole family that I've grown to love, will stop making videos and I'll lose that connection. That entire bond I've created through technology. Gone. They wouldn't know, because they don't know me, but it will affect me in every way possible.

And I don't think I'm ready for that day.

I don't think I ever will be.