Dreams

An Open Letter to Shay Carl

To everyone else: This idea came from @virtuesintheverse's Count book, she wrote and open letter to Dan Howell. Not only do I say this to give credit but also you guys probably know who Dan Howell is more than Shay *silent tear*. And also, mine is just going to be a boring "thank you you saved mah lifeee!!!1!!11" letter, unlike virtues, who has a real, thought provoking, well said letter to Dan. Okay, on with the sappy stuff. *cringes*

Shay -

There have been very little YouTubers who have made me feel like I had a connection with them, and even fewer who I have turned to to watch when things in reality were too much. With those people, I felt as if I could escape into another world where I wasn't me, and my problems weren't there, and I could be a completely different, happy person while watching one of those people. You are one of those people.

When I first saw you, the first words that came to my mind about you were, ironically, "obnoxious" and "loud". Now I now that, for a fact, you actually are obnoxious and loud, but in a way that makes me smile. The first vlog I ever watched of yours was "DID YOU CHEAT?", posted on February 19, 2013. (Which basically means the first clip I'd ever seen of you and Colette together showed you picking your nose, wiping it on Colette, and then you saying "What's a few boogers with true love?"). I automatically liked your personalities, and the kids, and Colette, and Zeke, and I remember exactly where I sat, watching ShayTards vlogs for hours, smiling.

But the one vlog I remember that really made me smile and laugh and love your family was "TERRIFIED TIRE TARD", from July 14, 2012. And although I didn't watch it exactly when it was posted, it made me feel so connected to you guys (Mostly the scene where you were filming Rocktard in the swing that pushed on its own, and you could hear "Dad!" in the background, to which you reply, "Hold on, I'm pushing your brother."). But enough reminiscing on videos I watched, the point is, although I wasn't there from year one, I still feel like I've known you all my life. (Although I have watched every vlog since day one, it was a long and fun journey)

I seem to feel like there is no point to this letter, besides "Hey, you're cool", and also the fact that I'm talking to a wall, mostly because you won't really read this, and everyone else one here who has stayed until this point probably has no idea who I'm talking about, sadly.

I basically just wanted to say that you are the channel I go to when I don't want to live in my own world, and I'm glad you're that channel.

And just a quick fact, I have cried during Rocktard's Birth, Brotard's Birth (that was very emotional for me,  wow), Malachi's Passing, the vlog "Where's Malachi?" (dat thumbnail), "Baby's First Smile", and "Please Love Each Other". So yep.

Sincerely,

Layla

P.S. If you are not Shay, I'm sorry you're very confused. I ramble sometimes.

P.P.S. If you are Shay, well, this is awkward. I'm still sorry though. I ramble a lot. But if you are Shay, let me just go cry now. Bye.