a Big Mess of Weird Stuff

February and March 2017

The 14th of February

19.48

Wow, I just finished studying for my maths test, which I really gonna suck. 

I'm so freakin' tired, but I am going to tell you about today. It was a great day, just like normal days, but only that one guy form our class got a rose for valentine's day, Pam was late today because she hurt her neck and got to the doctor. That was all. Oh, yeah. I got my grades list (does that exist in English?), anyways it was a boring day. 

The only thing I am looking forward to is that my braces will be removed Monday! :D

I found out something. Our class is very.. uhh how do you call that?... very blaming you for things if you fail at something. Some people will laugh if you say something wrong, but I think they just do that because my classmates are very insecure.

I'm part of WWF (World Wide Fund for Nature), well, I am a life guard. I get every month a poster with different facts about animals and how the world is. Today I read about how much species were becoming extinct and it really made me emotionally. Just so you know, I care a lot about animals. I used to be thinking a lot about how to make the world a better place for wild animals. Nowadays, I push those thoughts away, because they make me cry and I don't wanna cry. I have made a method for myself to cherish me up and that is that I think about the things how I could solve this and that I already am trying to fix these things.

The 22nd of February

18.07

My braces are gone since Monday!! I am very happy with it, because I hated them. Only my friends noticed it, but said that they found it beautiful. I have to say it made my smile better. 

I don't know if something important happened today, but I know I am starting to get a crush on Micheal. It happened because he is sitting next to me at Physics. I don't know, he is teasing me, but he also does that by a lot of other girls. Mweh. I am not going to do anything with it anyways. I never do. I once sent a Valentine's card to a crush last year. I felt really, really frightened that he would found out. He did not. I wrote down a little hint, but still not.

19.13

I just had dinner and now I'm getting ready for basketball. I quit taekwondo since January and I think after the summer holiday I want to start doing at theatre, acting. I really like that and Daantje will probably come with me which I am happy about, otherwise, it feels uncomfortable if you don't know anybody. With basketball, it's a little bit messed up. Our team doesn't have a permanent trainer or coach, which causes that we lose quite a lot. I am not saying that is the only problem - we are also not the best players - but it is a big cause. Yesterday I went to another  basketball club, together with Judi and I kind of liked it over there. Nice people, boys (we have a girl team) and a permanent trainer. The difference between the best and the lesser teams is also not very big, which I also prefer. Funny thing is, a boyfriend, of someone I used to be friends with (very long ago) plays at the basketball club where we came to watch and another girl of that team was constantly teasing and flirting with him.

The 23th of February

16.49

I actually don't have time to write (have to learn for a test tomorrow), but here it is: today was really weird. That guy that I was talking about previous day was very much around me today (more than other boys). He calls me Little Layla all the time and it really annoys me. His friends do it too, because of him. At one time he sits next to me at a workshop we had (all the VWO classes went to a university today), he first fist-bumps with me and after that he doesn't say a thing. I don't know what to think.

The 13th of March

16.24

Today I was very happy, I am still very happy. I don't know why. I think because the past two days, I'd incredibly beautiful weather. The sun shines and you can walk outside with a jacket. I found out that I really like summer. Most of people like summer, but I always said to myself that I was happy every season. At the first year at high school it changed. That was because it was the first time I had to cycle in bad weather... OK. That was the small talk. 

Ehh... I had a lovely midsummer holiday/carnaval holiday. I celebrate carnaval. Ever heard of it? I went with Daantje to a studio totally dressed up in the Elfia outfit (you know that event I went to with Dorine? It had to do with creating a costume). In that studio all kinds of singers/performers/play-backers sang and people with videocameras recorded it. Kind of weird, because sometimes only my face was on screen (luckily I wore a lot of make up). An old friend saw me and laughed. It was on tv... 

I made a lovely chalk/hand-lettered painting kind of thing for a project of my mother and father (they work as interior architects). And I went to Harry Potter, The Exhibition. It was awesome.(Right now, I am addicted again to the Harry Potter- books.)

At other days nothing special happened. The only things that I did was: gaming, singing karaoke at an app(I use Sing!), reading, watching Netflix and wii'ing with my dad (Mario Kart). Sometimes you just have a boring life and you can only talk about the weather and old holidays...

The 23rd of March

23.19
I have the feeling that I have been alone for the past week. Only studying and not being social. I don't know, after I went to the supermarket with my dad, I noticed how uncomfortable I was at the supermarket, just going out for some time. Why? Why am I such an introvert? I don't like it...

If I get a 6.5 or higher for each test at this test week, I can colour my hair. I'm very excited about it, but also kinda frightened. Would I get enough points for such a mark? Well, it is just a test week and colouring my hair is not a big deal. Maybe it is (colouring my hair). I don't know, I have the feeling that people don't notice me at school (I don't have to get the centre of attention)... But just like, if you see me doing something weird, you would respond to do that. No one does if I walk down the hall in my school. Earlier this week I was saying in my head "that is so funny!" at a certain rhythm, with a big smile. My head was moving, bu no one noticed it.

It is late, so I'm just gonna read Harry Potter and the Coblet of Fire (I started 3 weeks ago with the first one😀)