a Big Mess of Weird Stuff

June 2017

The 17th of June

22.40

Wow. I don't really know what to say about today. Well, I do, but I don't know what I find out about it. Some parts I surely did not like. Other ones I did.

Today I had my first "try" day in a child clothing store, boutique. I had to hand out flyers which was certainly not what I expected. I thought I had to help customers in the store. I was quite disappointed but carried on. A half hour later (my boss told me that), I came back to the shop, got some tasks, but had not eaten yet, at one o'clock, so I asked my boss that I could lunch. She said yes, but that I could not do that again if I would work there. I lunched (behind the boutique, I took a sandwich with me) and came back to the store. My boss said that I had to hand out flyers again and so I did. A half hour later, she called me and asked me to come to the room behind the shop. 'I am not going to do it anyway,' she told me, 'you can go.' I was totally devastated and cried at home. My mom asked me why I had to leave. I said I did not know, because I was totally shocked when Pam (name of boss) (yeah, I know, is the same as the girl I did not like in the 2nd grade) told me to go. My mom called her and asked her why I had to leave. The reasons why I had to leave was not because I sucked at working in a clothing store (I really want to work in a clothing store), but the reasons were that I lunched during the "working" hours and because I could only work one week in the summer holiday (Pam and I discussed the summer holidays yesterday) (I told her that I could work two weeks, but I think she did not understand that). Pfff...

I just watched a great movie: Passengers with Jennifer Lawrence and Chris Pratt. I love science-fiction. Doctor Who is also magnificent. Maybe this sounds sarcastic in comparison to the story I just told you about my first work day, but I am not sarcastic. I like Passengers, but it had a weird end. It felt like something was missing, something was unexplained. Nevertheless, Jennifer Lawrence and Chris Pratt are great actors. So what I find weird is that Jennifer Lawrence said that she did not really like acting or something like that. Well, she is great in what she does not like. Hihi, I feel like a reviewer when I write like this.

The 25th of June

22.16

I have to tell you something, but I don't know if I should. Some people that I know could read this and get hurt, so I am not going to write it down.

Tomorrow I have my last "normal" school day. Really weird. Last school day with this year's class. I am happy about it. This school year was not so good in class, but it was really good academically.

I don't know what to do with basketball. I went to another club, but I am not happy. I feel very insecure when I am there. I think a lot. I hate that. Why do I think a lot? Sigh. Sometimes you think too much, sometimes you just don't think and do some stuff you actually had to overthink... And sometimes.. everything goes well. You feel happy and just think normally. Not too few, not too much. I hope everything will work out and that those girls at the new club will be nicer. And that not the same thing will happen with me, than that thing with Mia.

Oh yeah. Forgot to tell: I hate Michael right now.