a Big Mess of Weird Stuff

July 2017

The 18th of July

00.02

The looks of my perfect boy would be a tanned guy with dark/blond hair (don't care how long), kind and playful eyes, a british accent (that is my weakness), a naughty, little school boy feeling (and maybe a sigaret in the corner of his mouth - I don't know why, but it has something sexy).

The 28th of July

23.23
Oh.. I have no freakin' idea were to start. It has been a weird couple of weeks. I don't know if there happened exiting things, but certainly it changed my perspective on my love life (which didn't exist)(still not actually).. It can happen. People can be interested in me. It feels really weird to tell it because some persons who know me in real life are gonna read this..😁

School is over!! The third year happened so freakin' fast.. Woah. I am kinda nervous for my new class. I do not want it to be that hard in the first weeks just like previous year. That sucked. I will just try to make the best out of it.

In the first week (last week) of summer holiday, I went to Italy. with Dorine and Merel. It was awesome and crazy. We talked about the weirdest things and every night, we went to the city to watch boys and to find out a great candidate for Dorine (she wanted to have her first kiss on this holiday (didn't happen)). There was only one really sucky thing: we all got our period after one another, so we couldn't swim together. But after all, we had fun. And I made a new friend (more on that later). Alessandro, he is called.

Oh yeah, is it weird that if someone you barely know wants to meet up with you? There was a guy, who I knew from taekwondo and sent a Snap to me randomly with "Hey, how are you doing?". We started talking and then he was like: 'I have question? Do you want to meet up tomorrow? I don't have to work.' I said 'no, I already have plans.' (I did have plans and I also did not want to meet him.)

The 30th of July

22.20
Do you also have sometimes the feeling you have to do/have something because people expect you to do/have it but you don't want that? I have that with relationships. If I tell people I met a guy or I like a guy, people immediately want to set you up with him or that I have to try and start a conversation. It is like they push you for having a boyfriend. It makes me feel like I have to live up to something and that doesn't feel great. Absolutely not.

I met Alessandro on a very weird way, but it is a funny story to tell.
In details:
Merel, Dorine and I were walking through the streets of a small town in Italy, when I caught three boys watching and following our steps. I told it to my friends that people were stalking us and Merel agreed. We walked further till we stopped at a square. The boys stopped but stood further away discussing something. Dorine wasn't sure and said we had to go into another street, so we walked. They didn't follow us, but we met them on a different square, which let our street to (you had two streets, leading from square to another) Merel was all like: "Jep, they are really stalking us." Dorine, Merel and I walked back to the first square (I am probably making this way too difficult). We saw them watching us, but we walked further. At some point, a boy of the group of three came towards us. "Do you speak English?" He said. Dorine and Merel didn't see him, but I did. At that very moment, I felt a peanut piece in my throat and had to cough so loudly. (Three times) Dorine saw me trying to talk, so helped me out. "Yes, we speak English."He cleared his throat and said: "You are a beauty, can I have your phone number?" Dorine was like: "me?" "Yes." So she gave her number. We made a little conversation, but then split apart. (Dorine, Merel and I together and he (Fabian (we later found out)) back to his group.)
A half hour later (something like that), we were trying to follow a guy Merel liked, but the boys started to follow us again. I thought I heard some "hey's" but wasn't sure, so I answered later. We started a conversation and talked. They were called Alessandro, Fabian and André. We got each other's Insta's. I am still talking on Instagram with Alessandro. Funny, it was a week ago.
In short:
Three guys stalked us, one asked Dorine's number. Half hour later (something like that), started conversation and got each other's Insta's.

Tadaa.
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