The 3rd of October
21.03
Do you also have days were you don't have any idea what you are actually doing, what is actually going on in your head? I don't know what is going on, but I feel like I am watching myself, like I know what's happening, but don't have any control of it. My mind is on a different planet and I have to force myself for an emotion on my face. What the hell is going on? Is it because I am so freakin' tired? Or is it because my head is boiling over?
A lot of stuff happened these days (that's why my head is boiling over), probably teeny tiny things for you, but for me, it feels major important and different.
My best friend was called a hoe, my cat's tail has snapped, my mom has come back from Ibiza, I insulted a friend on her speaking skills (said it was boring), I have started "Snapping" (Snapchat) with two boys (major shock), one has a girlfriend (we are friends) and one is just weird (I have no idea why I said "yes" to have a streak), my team is going to split up (I am probably going to end up in a different team where I don't know anybody) (my teammates finally liked me), I sucked at the tests this week (which is my fault, because I got distracted all the time) (now I blame myself) and I blame my parents for my perfectionism (high expectations) and insecurity. Do normal people have only one problem?
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Damn it, I have only written on one day in the whole month... I am sorry, very very sorry. It is just.. I was very busy. My phone was/is broken, so I couldn't write when I was in Lisbon during the fall break and I have testweek this week (which I am going to fail)... You know, life keeps you busy. I hate school so much. Blegh.
XOXO (Yes, I have seen Gossip Girl ;))
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