a Big Mess of Weird Stuff

Something with more information about something that I only find interesting

ANYONE WHO READ LAST CHAPTER BEFORE THIS ONE WAS PUBLISHED- you already read this shit. SO IF YOU WANT TO READ IT AGAIN, YOU CAN

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If anyone wants to know how it ended up with Jared, you know, all the dates in stuff, I will give you a small summary.

After our first few dates, I was like: "okay this is going good. Maybe we are something. I don't know."

Then a friend tells me that Jared told him that we are couple and I was so happy. I didn't see Jared at school most of the time, but we app'ed a lot. When I went to Spain and to the United States, I gave him a hug.

Spain kind of ruined our contact. He posted some pictures of the Italian exchange (Italians were in the Netherlands) and every time there was an Italian girl on the picture. I got jealous, but I did not want to worry about it, so I let it slide. In the US, everything was great, even though the time difference.

But I got doubts and I was not sure what we were.

I asked him that the first time I saw him after the trips (a month later to be precise) and he told me he didn't know either and that that friend had misunderstood him. So, I was confused as hell and we told each other about our feelings and I said that sometimes I liked him as a friend and sometimes I liked him more than that.

We were both confused and after that last meet-up, it went down-hill. He was ill and had pfeiffer (which he did not tell me and I had to ask about) and we didn't see one another. Meh.

So, I said: 'I want to be just friends.'

His answer: 'I hadn't expect that we would be more than that.'

Pffffff

'Why is that?' I asked

'IDK, it's just the "vibe" I got and I just knew before you told me just now.'

Freakin' bastard, why would you lead me on? Do you like the attention or something?