A New Beginning

Chapter 43

Orion –

Something is wrong with my angel. I am not sure what but I know something is definitely going on. I am not sure how to even broach the subject since he gives off this happy facade and I do not feel that we as a couple are in trouble but something is definitely off.

Last week's outing with Fay left him; I just cannot put my finger on it. I just know that I can sense something off in his behavior. 

But when I really think about it, since we closed the sale on the condo and met the new owner, he has not been acting the same since. I do not want to make waves because things have been so good with us but I worry for him and I cannot ignore this any longer.

He is currently at a board meeting with his grandmother. They both invited me to come along with them but with this concern over his behavior on my mind, my head has been bothering me some. With that knowledge Shiloh refused to leave me alone as he instantly goes on high alert whenever even the slightest of head aches hits me but his grandmother made it perfectly clear that his presence was mandatory and he knew this.

She also made it clear that there is a house full of trained staff that is quite capable of picking up the phone and notifying them if anything does go wrong with my health. I laughed at the put out expression on my baby's face.  He was determined but she has an unmovable will.

Once he gets home, I plan on having a heart to heart with my angel. I do not want us not to communicate or worse, keep secrets. Whatever drove the old me to cheat on such an amazing man, I want to do the opposite.  I do not ever want to lose him for any reason especially one of my own making.  As I think on a strategy of how to broach the subject, I finally hear my baby enter.

I turn to look at him and ask, "Where is your grandmother?" "Gran decided to stay for the rest of the day to get some more work done." "Good!" He looks at me questioningly and says, "Why? Why good? Got anything in mind you want to do?" My very playful husband says to me while wiggling his eyebrows as he approaches me but before he can wrap his arms around me, I take his hands in mine and say, "Baby, we need to talk!"

Seeing the immediate look of concern and worry cross his face makes me feel like an ass. "No, no it is nothing bad I think!" With a bit of an apprehensive sound to his voice he asks, "What do you mean it is nothing bad? What is wrong Ori?" "Well, why don't we go out back and sit down in the breeze where we will be more comfortable and I will have someone bring us something to drink, then we can talk okay." He nods his head in agreement.

I pull him to me and wrap my arms around him as I plant a kiss on his forehead. One of the servants' walks by and I quickly request someone send a tray of drinks and something light to nibble on to the back patio. I then pull him behind me and head towards the best view to this whole estate.

We finesse our way onto the beautiful hand crafted swing as we wait for my requested items to arrive. He is on one end and I am on the other not too far away facing him. I take his hands into mine once again and look deep into his breathtaking eyes.

"Tell me what is wrong?" "He looks at me questioningly. "Baby please. I know something is wrong so please just tell me what is going on. Is it me?  Did I do something wrong?" "No, no never. It is not you Ori!" "Then what? What is going on?"

He looks down at our joined hands with a guilty expression on his face. He looks back up into my eyes and has this look of utter hopelessness on his face. "Please do not hate me." "Angel, why in the world would you think I could ever hate you? How could that thought even cross your mind? You are near perfect!"

He starts shaking his head in disagreement and I pull my hands out of his and grab his face instead. As the tears start falling from his angelic eyes he whispers softly, "I did something you are not going to like." At this point, my anxiety level starts to spike as my imagination takes over and every horrible scenario runs through my mind all ending with him finally deciding to cheat on me as revenge.

The dread that encompasses my soul overwhelms me but this is Shiloh we are talking about. My angel, who is gentle, kind, thoughtful, funny, sweet, drop dead gorgeous and truly magnificent. This is also the man who has done nothing but shone me unconditional love even though I feel it is not deserved.

I take control of my wayward emotions and pull him onto my lap. His legs are now wrapped around my waist but instead of seeing his face all I see is the vast expanse of the estate grounds since my baby has hidden himself into the side of my neck.

He is crying uncontrollably so I do the only thing I can and just try to sooth him. I am so desperate to find out what is going on but he is so hysterical right now that my only concern is calming him down. After what felt like a good few minutes, he is completely still in my arms.

I know he is not asleep by the way he is breathing so I say, "Out with it Shiloh. I cannot take this torment you are going through. I need to know what is going on now." I feel his face inch its way towards mine so I look down into his eyes and without the use of any words, I know that he needs affection, comfort and maybe even some encouragement.

I give my angel a sweet kiss and pull back a bit and without letting my hold lessen on him he says, "I paid your ex-lover a visit!" Well, fuck me...