Love Forever || Jawyer

Chapter 58: Somehow, It's Not The Same

But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night.

That I will fall for you over again,

Don't make me change my mind.

-Fall For You, Secondhand Serenade

(Fave Song)

*Months Later*

[Joey's POV]

I cook breakfast for Sawyer and I. It's the same process everyday.

I finish cooking and sit at my new desk Sawyer had given to me. I take in the smell of our new apartment. It's cozy, if you ask me.

There's two bedrooms. One for Sawyer and I and a guest room. We finally have good internet connection, as well.

I hear Sawyer coming towards the kitchen. He sees the plate of food waiting for him. He sighs and picks up the plate. He eats in the kitchen. I finish and put my plate away. We look at each other.

"Should we go somewhere, today?" He asks, staring me down and smiling. I shrug.

"C'mon, Joey. Be happy for once." He states, also putting his plate away.

"I am happy." I force a smile and he pouts. "Alright, we can go." He smiles crookedly.

I sigh.

I feel as if I'm putting him down. Ever since what had happened months ago between him smoking.. I feel as if I don't have any connection with him anymore. Why does this feeling occur? I don't like the feeling.

It's not the same, my mind says. But my heart says otherwise. Yet, I don't know what it's really saying.

"Go change. I'll wait for you here." I could see his eyes brightening. We haven't been on a date since the incident.

The incident is always on my mind. It's like, I'm holding onto my past and I need to stop.

I obey Sawyer and go upstairs to change. My mind feels cloudy. I somehow don't have the sense of style anymore. I want to ask Sawyer for help, but I immediately tell myself I wouldn't.

I pick out a caramel colored blazer and a white dress shirt. I wear my dark jeans and I look at myself in the mirror.

Is this even good enough? No, it's not. So, I wear a black blazer instead. I think it suits me better than the caramel colored blazer.

I fix my hair.

It's down again, since I started to feel as if the quiff-style didn't go with me.. But, I fix my hair to be it's quiff. It's possibly just for today. But, I might get lazy so I won't even change it. I leave the room and head to Sawyer. He's scratching Hitch's stomach and smiling.

I could feel my lips forming a smile, similar to Sawyer's.

Sawyer looks at me. His eyes shine and I immediately blush. He gets up and kisses me lightly on the cheek. The smell of peppermint fills my senses.

I realize he's already changed into his formalwear and he sure does look better than me.

"You ready?" He asks, I nod. He takes a hold of my hand. He squeezes my hand, and I finally feel a bit relaxed.

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This reminds me of our first date. He doesn't tell me where were going. All he does is drive and just makes me guess. Although I love surprises, I don't want any right now. But, I'll go with the flow.