letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo3。

day three:

ive been thinking lately.
that's all ive been doing
nowadays. i miss you.

there's not a day that goes by
where i don't think of
you, or us. because you
were the holder of my
heart. the only one who
treated me well.

i just fucking wish i
could have been there
when you desperately
needed me. i tried, and
i failed. i failed you. i
let you down, look where
we are now.

im fucking shattered, broken.
you're dead. there's no coming
back. the group is depressed.
it's not the same.

taehyung doesn't smile
anymore. hoseok doesn't
laugh. namjoon and seokjin
broke up. everything is
falling to pieces.
because of me, because i
didn't have the courage to
save you.

how i wish i knew how bad
it gotten. i would have the
chance to tell someone.

or have you wrapped in my
arms, at all times. to protect
you. to keep you safe.

but instead,
im crying on my floor.
stifling my sobs.
hiding the way i feel.
when in reality,
there's a heavyweight pain
in my chest.

closing off my oxygen,
it's hard to breathe without
you. i feel guilty.

sorry to leave you, babe.
i need fresh air.
i will write to you later.

。。。

third chapter.

hope you enjoy it.

will publish after my other story, 'Desperate.' is finished.