letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo49。

day fourty nine:

i am writing to
you again, ha,
this is pathetic
of me. 

since you'll
never see this. not
even your "dad."

taehyung cheated
on me, with guess
who? hoseok.

an old best
friend of mine.
is this what i
deserve? a broken
heart and nowhere
to stay.

i kicked tae out
but this is his
home after all.

so where will
i end up? my mother
doesn't even want me.

because im fucked
up in the head. im not
fucking normal.

why me?

maybe i should
end it all, overdose
on pills. harm myself
until i bleed out.

i just don't want to live.

i have no reason.

because i know.
i know the truth behind
my own fucking lies.

。。。

any ideas?