letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo15。

day fifteen:

so
today my mom
found me on
my floor, wailing.

screaming out
your name, lying
there, almost, almost
successful to being with
you again.

today has not
been a good day,
i bled out.

and was taken
to the hospital,
and the doctors
asked me "why?"

and all i could
fucking utter
was your name.

they were confused
but my mom knew
well enough what i
was saying, and she
said, "talk to me."

but there wasn't
anything to say,
other than that i
missed you, and
wanted to die just
to be in your presence
once again.

the following day
i seen a specialist.
a psychiatrist, and
she said that i had
severe depression.

she diagnosed me
and prescribed pills,
but i didn't want to ever
sallow them, because
they were the reason

you passed away.

。。。

crying