letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo72。

day seventy one continued:

[[ Whats the matter? Is Jimin okay?!"

He pinched the bridge of his nose and sighed. "For now."

"What do you mean for now?!" I shrieked. I wasn't going to let anything happen to Jimin. He's been through enough because of me, his old friends, himself, this Yoongi guy.

He didn't deserve all this pointless pain.

"Don't worry, okay? Calm down... I just.. Let me tell you my story..."

I hesitated at first, but agreed to hear him out, because maybe a twisted, fucked up resolution would come out of all of this. ]]

I continued to hear Yoongi out. What could possibly come from this?

Then words began to glide off his tongue. 

"Taehyung, there's really no way for me to explain this without sounding crazy.... I mean I was, or I am.. I don't know, I can't find the words.."

What was he trying to say? "Yoongi, you are confusing me. Please try your best. I need to know what's wrong. I need to know how to help Jimin recover." Yoongi sighed and muttered a small okay. 

"Just promise me you'll believe me."

I nodded.

"It began when I was a junior in high school. It was unlike anything I've ever experienced before. Slowly and gradually over time, I felt myself fading away. There was always this sensation that sent shockwaves through my veins and I could never seem to figure it out.

I'd wake up in the morning and remember someone I've never met. It got to point where this person was occupying my mind all day, every day. My mom was worried about me, seeing as my grades were failing and I started to talk to 'nothing' as she'd like to put it. 

This boy had crawled his way inside my mind and was itching at my fucking brain. It was my reality, no one else's. They never seen him, heard him, knew him. He was only there inside my head, which of course.. I never knew until a year later.

You see, I managed to develop feelings for him. A boy who was so pretty to look at, but somehow I could never touch. I think it was safe to say, I was in love with him. This kid, no one else would see. Who knew how it begun. The feelings. When or how they started, but they bloomed like flowers in a vibrant spring.

Eventually, all my friends drifted away from me. They didn't want to be seen with someone who was labelled crazy. I never understood what they meant by that, until my mom decided to take me to a psychiatrist.

My world came crumbling down, crashing hard unto the cold floor below me. I started to shake and cry. I was banging my head against the walls, wailing out loudly, my heart twisted against my chest and burst into a thousand tiny pieces when they told me... I was schizophrenic.

The boy I came to love was only a figment of my imagination. The boy I came to love wasn't real. The boy I came to love was Jimin."

Yoongi started to get choked up, as tears rolled down his plump cheeks. 

I stood there in shock. What does he mean by this? Why is he crying? Jimin is very much real and alive.

But then again, Jimin had experienced the exact same thing. Jimin was in love with Yoongi, right here in front of me, who we all, at one point, thought wasn't real.

I rubbed his back and told him to continue if there was anymore he could say. And there was.

"After t-that, I took it upon myself to see if Jimin was actually nonexistent like they said. To me, it felt wrong. It felt like he had to be real.

Hours upon hours went to researching him. At times, I wanted to give up because what was the point? Looking up someone who probably never existed.

A voice in my head kept repeating to me, and telling me to never give up. So that's what I did. I never gave up and eventually found a picture. The boy had the same name. Park Jimin. They shared the same, breathtaking face. It was him.

Yet, I never told anyone because they'd lock me up in a mental institution. I had to forget him and move past it. Which broke me, but I never did forget. He was always lingering in my mind.

I went to college, graduated, and became the doctor I am today. Once I had seen this case.. I had see Jimin, what he was going through, and I took the chance to finally see the boy who made up my reality.
Let me tell you, he's more perfect than I could ever imagine.
This has to be fate.. right??

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