letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo53。

jimin's pov:

I was clinging on.

Just barely holding the rope from life to death, before it snapped and tore completely, I heard the sound of giggles.

I wasn't dead. I was still very much alive. I heard the stomping of feet and my eyes fluttered open but they felt swollen.

They felt puffy. Taehyung hovered over me, he was yelling to Hoseok but everything was inaudible.

Noises were drowned out, everything around me seemed to be set out in slow motion. Panic was stricken all over the boy now carrying me in his arms.

I punched and clawed at him, yelling as loud as I could, but it hurt.

"Just let me die! Let me fucking go! I want to fucking die," was all I said, my voice was cracking and I felt weak.

Like my nervous system and organs would stop working at any given moment and that's what I wanted.

I was wailing, tears aggressively rolling down my cheeks, making it difficult to breathe.

I didn't want to calm down.

I was so close to being in a peaceful place. So close to what I wanted so badly, so close to being reunited with my best friend.

But I was unlucky.

The blaring of sirens pulled me out my trance as I heard them going off, Taehyung still grasping me in his hold, running outside where the paramedics took me.

I don't want to be alive anymore.
Why didn't you just let me die?

。。。

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