letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo16。

day sixteen:

i was supposed to
take my pills today,
but i couldn't bring
myself to do it.

therefore, my mom
forced them down
my throat. but i didn't
want them. i didn't
want them in my
fucking system, so i
spit it out, and ran
away from my mother.

i knew she just
wanted to help her
only child. but nothing,
nothing would ever
help me.

i havent been eating
lately, because im too
depressed to chew my
food. and you, and only
you know, that i suffered
with body issues, ive been
feeling shitty about my
self lately and i need you
more than ever right now.

because you said
i was perfect the way
i was, you didnt think
i should change, but
how would you feel
if you saw me now?

sleep deprived, weak,
bags under my eyes?

would you still
consider me handsome?

i really do miss you

。。。

so there's that