letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo52。

day fifty two:

taehyung's pov:

I had been ignoring Jimin, keeping my distance from him because guilt overtook me, holding me hostage.

I didn't want to confront him because I felt fucking awful. I knew it was wrong but I followed my thoughts instead of my gut instinct.

Hoseok felt 10 times worse since he knew of the situation, he knew all too well. He was the boy's best friend at one point.

We all kind of just gave up on Jimin.

Because in many aspects, Jimin gave up on himself and no one else understood the way the other thought, dealt with things, what he was going through.

None of us could comfort the boy, he was just a lost cause, wanting to be found, but unfortunately for him, it didn't end up like that.

Instead all of us, Hoseok, Namjoon, Seokjin and I stopped being friends with him. We pushed him away, I cheated on him. His own fucking blood mother kicked him out, leaving him stranded on the streets.

Of course I was there to scoop him up, but now look, look at what I've done.

。。。

Hoseok and I decided to make sure Jimin was fine. We knew of his history and the multiple times he acted upon suicidal attempts.

We were cracking jokes when a saw a lifeless body on the floor.

His face was flushed of color. He was as pale as the bright moon on the darkest night.

His fingertips and nails were turning blue. His eyes were closed, his eyelashes pressing down against his cheek.

The body that was in front of me looked limp. Huddled on the floor.

My adrenaline kicked in as I felt my heart thump against my ribcage like a drum.

This was all my fault.

。。。

yeah so this is obvious but i have plans