letters to you。「yoonmin」{COMPLETED} (#wattys2018)

oo6。

day six:

today is your birthday,
and honestly, i was
almost too sad to
celebrate, but i knew i
should do it for you.

because maybe, just
maybe, you might be
looking over me. as a
guardian angel, just
how you were when you
were alive.

you would be 19 today
isn't that crazy? im
trying to hold back tears
at this very moment,
because im remembering
how we used to celebrate it.

we'd spend it together,
running to the abandoned
tree house we found in the
forest. i remember each year,
the age you turned is how many
pecks on the lips id give you.

16, 17, 18, but now,
i can't and that truly
saddens me, yoongi.

i thought about visiting
your grave, but that wasnt
special enough and you
deserve everything special.

so i went to the tree house,
it looks different now that
youre not here. i made sure
to bring a pretty flower for
you.

i placed it on the spot
you usually sat at. i saw
the heart we carved with
our initials when we first
came here, memories
plaguing my mind.

im hugging my knees,
trying not to vomit,
but i can't fight back my
sorrow.

happy birthday, love.

i hope youre having fun
wherever you are.

。。。

im sobbing

my other book has 1k now
so thats happy, but this chapter is pretty sad