The Babysitter//Zach Herron

Ch 34- We will never be the same

The next day I have morning sickness once again.

Around 11:30 am we leave for our doctors appointment.

Zach can't stop talking about how excited he is to see our little sunshine...that's what we've began to call him or her...on the monetor.

We have completley embrased this situation, we are excited to have this baby!!

"I have a feeling it's a boy!! Little Zach Jr." He exclaims.

"Calm down, calm down Zach. We don't even find out the gender for another 3 weeks," I laugh.

"I can't help myself!!!" he says as he kiss attacks my belly. At the moment, he's more excited about this little baby than I am.

We arrive at the doctor's office. I'm so glad we have Myta with us because if she wasn't here we would be getting so many more dirty looks than we already are.

Myta checks me in and Zach and I find two empty seats in the waiting room next to the windows.

"Y/n Y/ln" the nurse calls out. We stand up and Zach holds my hand.

"Right this way. My name is Ella, I'll be your nurse today!!" 

"Hi, I'm Y/n...but you already know that" I laugh. "This is my boyfriend Zach and his mom Myta."

"Nice to meet you guys. I'm assuming this is your first pregnancy?" she questions.

"Yup!!" Zach answers for me, he's too excited to contain himself.

Ella walks into a room right next to the waterfountain. "Ok, first we need to get your weight and blood pressure, and other simple standard things like that."

After that, she types a few things into the computer and then begins to turn the monetor on.

"Here y/n, you can lie down on this chair." she lifts my shirt up revealing my slightly raised stomach.

"The gel is a little cold, so be prepared." 

Zach holds my hand and smiles down at me. I haven't seen him this happy in a long time.

She moves the device around on my stomach until she finds a good spot to see the baby.

"There's the little one," Ella says as she points to the monitor. 

"Awwww look at that guys!! Feels like just yesterday I was in here pregnant with Reese!!" Myta says.

Ella gets quiet. "Will you excuse me for a second?" she leaves the room.

"Is something wrong?" I start to worry.

"I don't know, I'm just as confused as you are," Zach replies.

30 seconds later Ella walks back in with the doctor.

"Hi I'm Doctor Harris, I'm just going to take a quick look at what we've got going on over here." he says.

Dr. Harris moves the transducer around on my stomach, he whispers something to Ella.

I get a pit in my stomach. "What's wrong?" I ask. I get no response.

Zach and I both feel panicked. 

What the Doctor says next, turns our world upside down. 

"I can't find a heartbeat, I'm so sorry."

I look at Zach and start to cry.

"What?? No, there must be some mistake!!" I say frantically.

"Look harder." Zach's getting frustrated.

"We are so sorry for your loss..." the doctor says. The nurse begins to tear up.

Zach leaves the room and slams the door behind him.

Myta attempts to comfort me, but all I can do is cry. How do you comfort a mother who just lost their baby? I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest.

Our precious baby is dead.

In this moment I feel like I'm being suffocated, there is no greater pain than the loss of your own child.

The doctor leaves the room and we are given as much time as we need until we feel stable enough to leave.

No matter how hard I try, I can't stop bawling. 

Eventually, Myta and I leave the building. We find Zach sitting outside on the curb.

He looks up when the door opens and runs over to us, embrassing me. The only place I can find the smallest bit of comfort in this heartbreak, is in his arms.

The car ride back is silent. I took off my seatbelt and laid my head on his lap while Zach stroked my hair.

My tears cause his light wash jeans to have a different color where I laid my head.

Myta pulls into the driveway. "Zach, I texted your dad and told him to take Ryan and Reese to go do something for a few hours. The house is empty."

Zach nods his head in understanding. 

We walk in the front door and see the table with Rosie's picture frame on it. 

It hits me that Zach and I lost our two babies in the span of 4 months. The two most precious things I've ever had, gone just like that. Congratulations world...you really broke me this time.

We go straight up to our room and lay on the bed.

I break the silence, "Zach, we never even got to meet our baby."

"I know y/n, this feels unreal. Like we'll wake up tomorrow and everything will be fine."

There is a knock at the door and Myta walks in.

I sit up in bed. "How are we supposed to get over this?" tears fill my already swollen eyes.

"This is a very unfortunate sad event, to say the least, but we will get through this together...as a family. We lost something unreplacable today, your frist child, my first grandchild" Myta says.

Myta was right, we would get through this together. We would eventually move on and continue living our lives. Leaving this tragedy in the past, pushing it to the back of our minds.

But as for right now, I can barely picture a future where I am completely happy again. A future where driving past a playground won't make my heart ache and seeing a baby in the grocery store won't bring me to tears.

A/N- ok guys so I was crying rly hard when I wrote this. I've gotten so attached to this story and I felt the pain of these characters when they heard the tragic news. 

I hope you can somewhat understand why this happened. I'm thinking when I finish the story I could analyze a chapter or 2 that you guys pick, to answer any questions you might have building up!! Let me know if you guys want something like that. 

Please don't yell at me in the comments....I know this is really depressing :(( sorry

Also, we hit 30k reads whatttttt!! 

I never thought this story would get noticed as widely as it has, you're all incredible :)))