atelophobia | kth + jhs

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From what Hoseok could make out, he is alone. Eyes opening slowly he stretched his arms out across the surface of the bed he was placed on in hopes of someone else being there with him.

The room was dimly lit by a lamp on his bedside table, sleep present in his eyes before propping himself up on his elbows - noticing that Taehyung was nowhere in sight.

"Taehyung?" Hoseok whispered out, frowning slightly at the rough scratchy pain in his throat whenever he spoke.

Looking across the room hoseoks eyes landed on the closed bathroom door, light escaping from the edges and in his mind he hoped Taehyung was in there.

Weakly dragging himself out of the warm bed he wrapped his arms around himself, pausing once he felt the soft material of the bandage on his left arm rub against his other.

Sighing out he reached for the handle, slowly opening the dreaded bathroom door which he had come to hate to reveal Taehyung.

The younger boy was on his hands and knees, face portraying such sadness whilst he held a blooded cloth in one hand whilst a razor was gripped inbetween the other. Taehyunf lifted his head up upon noticing the bathroom door open, large eyes meeting Hoseoks own as he sadly smiled whilst looking up towards him.

Hoseoks mouth opened, a wave of guilt passing throughout his body.

He felt sick, seeing Taehyung have to clean up the mess he made. Taehyung shouldn't have to put up with this.

"Y-You don't have to c-clean it up, Taehyung. I-I will." Hoseok whispered out, wrist hidden shamefully behind his back.

"No, it's okay. You need to rest Hoseok." Taehyung firmly yet softly replied, sitting upwards with his hands now in his lap.

"I-I don't want to go back to bed if y-you aren't there."

At that Taehyung smiled, propping himself up on two feet he stepped forwards towards his boyfriend, placing a kiss on his forehead. "I'll be done quickly."

Hoseok stood silent before hesitantly nodding, slowly making his way back to his bed before sliding underneath the covers once again, pulling them over his head whilst gripping the edge tightly - nervously waiting for Taehyung to join him.

A few minutes had passed and Hoseoks hooded eyes shot open once he heard the bathroom door open, Taehyung stepping out with blooded towels which for sure weren't Hoseoks.

The younger must have bought his own towels over, since Hoseok didn't have any spare to use. Hoseoks cheeks flushed red out of anger and embarrassment - he was suprised Taehyung hadn't left him by now.

"I-I'm so-sorry." Hoseok stammered out, voice barely a whisper yet Taehyung understood him perfectly. "It's alright baby. I can just buy new ones, don't feel bad."

Walking out of the bedroom Hoseok let out a silent whimper watching taehyung leave, the other returning a few seconds later without the towels and Hoseok could only think that Taehyung must have thrown them away.

Taehyung made his way over to Hoseoks bed, climbing in next to the other boy before pulling him tightly against his chest, not letting the other out of his hold.

Hoseok let out a small smile, Taehyungs arms wrapped around his waist was what he needed.

Their faces lay close together, noses brushing eachothers whilst Taehyungs fingers gently trailed across Hoseoks bandaged wrist, bringing it up to his lips before gently kissing the surface.

Hoseok lay still, watching the other press light kisses atop the damaged area of his now covered arm until silent cries trembled out past his lips.

Taehyung shakily breathed out, tears rolling down his cheeks and onto the pillow beneath, eyes not leaving hoseoks arm.

"P-Please don't ever do this again."

Pulling his arm back Hoseoks eyes stung, leaning forward to kiss the crying boy infront of him who looked so broken.
Wiping the fallen tears away from his cheeks hoseok had to stop himself from falling apart.

"I-I won't."

Taehyung relaxed into the touch of Hoseoks hand against his cheek, bringing his own hand up to cover hoseoks smaller one.

Biting his bottom lip Taehyung secured his hold against hoseoks Hoseoks as he moved ontop of the other, staring into his eyes with so much love and fear before leaning down to kiss Hoseoks nose.

"Promise?"

Hoseoks gaze followed Taehyungs eyes down to his lips, not finding his words as he was mesmorised by the others beauty, licking the side of his bottom lip whilst staring at Taehyungs slightly swolen ones.

"Promise." Hoseok whispered, his hands reaching towards the back of Taehyungs neck before pulling him down to connect their lips, moving one hand to tightly hold onto his soft hair keeping him in place - afraid that Taehyung was going to leave him.

Taehyung relaxed into the kiss, tongue dominantly forcing its way into Hoseoks now parted lips before moving himself to rest inbetween Hoseoks parted legs.

Whimpering into the kiss Hoseoks body shivered feeling Taehyungs fingers play with the rim of his sweatpants, pulling them down slowly before pressing his thumbs against hoseoks hip bones, massaging the skin around that area which Taehyung knew Hoseok loved.

"Taehyung." Hoseok panted out, squirming underneath Taehyungs hold as the youngers fingers gripped onto the sides of his hips, teeth grazing against the skin of Hoseoks burning hot skin.

Pressing one last kiss to Hoseoks neck Taehyung pulled back, breathing in and out heavily before collapsing further against Hoseoks flushed body.

Their gazes met, Taehyungs dazed eyes now accompanied by a strong layer of lust and want.

With tears now threatening to spill Taehyung shut his eyes tightly, he couldn't cry, not when Hoseok needed him to be strong.

Hoseok was beautiful, Taehyung couldn't understand why the one he loved beneath him hated himself so much.

"I love you."

Hoseoks eyes reflected the other boys before him - a broken smile edging its way onto his lips.

"I love you too."